Why We're Here

"Because writing is, much like death, a very lonely business."
- Neil Gaiman

December 29, 2013

Mission Countdown Week 1

Countdown Week 1: An Implausible Mission
3 Now they were desirous that salvation should be declared to every creature, for they could not bear that any human soul should perish; yea, even the very thoughts that any soul should endure endless torment did cause them to quake and tremble.
(Mosiah 28:3)
We try to follow Christ in the sense that we care for every individual. We can't even consider people being subjected to despair and misery, because we have the spirit of Christ in us -- we want to save everybody. Not just everybody, but we want to save you. We want to save Austin. Christ wants to save everybody. 

December 15, 2013

Christmas

Christmas is special to me...
because when you think about it, a God came down as a baby. Completely helpless and vulnerable. Think about it... How much trust Jesus and Heavenly Father must've had in Mary and Joseph. It's astounding. 
I think of what He came down to, what He had to look forward to. I think Isaiah 53 summarized it pretty well: 

3 He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not.

4 Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.

5 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities . . .

7 He was oppressed, and he was afflicted, yet he opened not his mouth: he is brought as a lamb to the slaughter . . .

8 He was taken from prison and from judgment . . . he was cut off out of the land of the living: for the transgression of my people was he stricken.

Not a very enticing lot. The agony of Gethsemene, the brutality of the cross at Gol Gatha, the torment of the Sadducees, the betrayal of Judas... Yet he came willingly, happily for us. Even when he didn't want to do it, he came through for us. I think Christmas represents the faith that God has in *Us.* Faith that we wouldn't waste the atonement, faith that Mary and Joseph would be good parents. Faith in humanity. 

December 10, 2013

Hype

Author's Note: This will not be a post about myself, despite the title. 

When something is hyped to a person (a hypee), they experience one of two responses: excitement or apathy. People who get excited either share and partake of the hype, becoming more and more excited for the hyped thing, while hyping it to others. People who are apathetic won't care about hype. As a matter of fact, it will most likely bother them and cause them to foster ill feeling towards it. 
When something hyped is experienced by a hypee, there are two reactions for each category of hypee, based off of the quality of the hyped item. Let's explore. 

Exited hypees: 
Reaction 1: The hypee is disappointed, and the disappointment is amplified by the amount of hype it received. This can result in bitterness and depression. Overall, they're less likely to be receptive to hype the next time the hype train rolls around. 
Reaction 2: They're pleased! The thing lives up to its hype, and the hypee is excited beyond their wildest dreams. They're more receptive to hype, and will likely float on cloud nine for the next couple of days. 
Now, there are mediums to these reactions. These are just the generalized benchmarks. 

Apathetic hypees: 
Reaction 1: The hypee's apathy is met. I.e. the thing is perfectly whelming. It's nothing special. They'll continue not caring about the hype. It'll reinforce that behavior of emotional non-involvement. They'll continue to sneer and look down on hype. 
Reaction 2: They're shocked out of their apathy by the amazing-ness of the hyped thing! They'll be more receptive to hype next time, and will probably hype things in the future Success for hype! 

December 9, 2013

Irrationality vs. Rationality

The truth is, humans can think and feel irrationally at times. Even when we're thinking rationally, we can still be feeling -- emotionally -- irrationally. Let me demonstrate. 
Statistically speaking, flying is the safest way to travel.* Despite this, I am terrified of flying. It panics me. It makes me scared. I can't look out the windows, because that just amplifies the terror. All I can do is clutch the armrest and wait for the flight to end as soon as humanly possible. 
"But Austin, flying is the safest way to travel!" 
I know! But that rational thought does nothing for my irrational  phobia. 
"Mind over matter" only matters when everything is over. 
Wish me luck for my flight tomorrow. I'm sure I won't need it, but I'll feel like I do. 

* While flight by aero-plane has been meticulously studied, statistics for flight by jetpack, nauseous gas, helium-filled balloons, and magic are slim at best. Thanks to Icarus, however, we have arrived at the "Waxy Chance," the common nickname for the well established 50% survival rate for flight by homemade wings. 


[-1 days until my birthday]
[1 day until the trip]
[2 days until brother'sbirthday]
[5 days until the Ward Christmas party]
[13 days until Christmas]
 

December 8, 2013

My Favorite Scriptures

My favorite scripture has always been D&C 18:10 -- "For behold, the worth of souls is great in the sight of God." Lately, another scripture has been slowly edging it's way towards that coveted position of favorite. In my eyes, it's a logical profession from my old favorite. It's found in John, 15:13, and reads "Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends." Do you get what I'm saying? The worth of souls is great, and the greatest expression of our love is to lay down our life for a friend. It's like "you're worth so much to me, I'll die for you. I'll lay down all my dreams and fears and insecurities for you, because you're my friend and you're worth so much to me, and to God." Of course, the ultimate expression of love will alway be the atonement -- one man laying down his life for all of the human race, but I think it applicable to all of us. Why else would Christ teach us to do the same? A point I wanted to make is that I interpret "laying down your life" as more than just dying. It means you put your insecurities out there. You share your secrets. You do whatever you can, however personal or painful, to help your friends. You lay it down... You set it before them, make it available. Nothing is held back. I'm not very good at this, but I'm working on it. I want to be able to stand proud and say, "I love you, my friend," and lay my life down for them. 

December 7, 2013

Madcap Recap

The graduation ceremony and open house went swimmingly. I was a bit disappointed that some people didn't make it, but I had a great turn out overall. It made me happy. I know they're all corny and cliche, but the messages about the future and pride in me really touched me. 
My party had a really low attendance -- 6 out of 25 -- but I'll just repeat what I said to each person. "It's okay, I understand." People get busy, things come up. I'm grateful for those that did manage to come, because I would've been crushed if nobody had come. Talk about awkward. We ended up playing Apples to Apples since Bunco was out. I only had two cards for the first twenty rounds (at least that many rounds, likely more) but then managed to come around in the last set of rounds to win!!(!) My winning score was 15 cards. My actual birthday is tomorrow, and it's shocking to know I'm turning 18. My, my, how lives and people change. I am so grateful for all the people I hold dear in my heart: "that's how I grow stronger." Thank you for being in my life. I love you. 

[-1 day since graduation]
[0 days until/after my party]
[1 day until my birthday]
[3 days until the trip]
[4 days until brother's birthday]
[17 days until Christmas] 

December 5, 2013

Blessed

I am wonderfully blessed in diverse ways. My body functions well, as my mind does. My family gets along. My parents teach and love me. We always have food on the table, clothes on our backs, and a place to sleep. My life is filled with conveniences and blessings, and I think it's past time to admit that I truly cannot comprehend how good my life is. 
If nothing else, my mission will bring me to other places, and, statistically speaking, they won't be as well off as Olathe. 
I thank God for my blessings; I don't know if I would be who I am if I had been given a different setting for life. 


[1 day until graduation/open house]
[2 days until the party]
[3 days until my birthday]
[5 days until the trip]
[6 days until brother's birthday]
[19 days until Christmas]

December 4, 2013

OMIT 4

One Moment In Time #4
Devastation 
All that was left was scorched earth. Every trace of the camps was gone. The makeshift cities that had sprung up overnight had vanished just as quickly. Not a trace of their occupants was left. 

All that was left was a broken rattle. 



[2 days until Graduation/Open House]
[3 days until the party]
[4 days until my birthday]
[6 days until the trip]
[20 days until Christmas]

December 3, 2013

OMIT 3

One Moment In Time #3
"Have you ever... believed in destiny?" She murmured as she pressed her forehead to his. 
He tried not to breathe too loudly in the silence as he considered his response. 
"No." He shook his head. She looked at him, questioning. He gripped her hand and smiled as he leaned forward. He closed his eyes as he bumped his forehead against hers. 
"I believe in a thing called love."

OMIT 2

One Moment In Time #2 
He cackled maniacally, lifting his arms above his head. 
"You can't stop me!" he sneered. "You're not good enough." 
He stared back at the psychopath, his face stoic. He responded calmly and evenly. 
"I can stop you."
His posture shifted. He turned so his right shoulder pressed forward, and bent his arms inwards in front of his face, like he was boxing. 
"I can stop you."
The crest on his hand began to glow, and his eyes had a hard glint in them. 
"I can stop you."
And he would. 

OMIT 1

One Moment In Time #1
"She wouldn't want you to be like this."
He laughed, tears brimming in his eyes. "I know, right? She'd expect more from me. She always did. She always pushed me." 
"She still can. She's not dead, you know." 
"She might as well be," he snarled. "You know just as well as I do what's coming next." 
"We can save her." 
"She would want that," he said softly. 

[3 days until graduation/open house]
[4 days until the party]
[5 days until my birthday]
[21 days until Christmas]

December 2, 2013

Weariness [After the Storm]


There was a weariness that seeped down to the bone. He shifted from one foot to the other, his eyes meeting hers. They eyed each other cautiously for a moment. Everything had led up to that point, and now they weren't sure how to continue. There was an awkwardness pervading the scene that felt almost ironic after everything that had happened. He clutched his bleeding arm, then finally sighed and started to speak from his heart. 
"The truth is," he spoke softly. 
"The truth..." she scoffed, crossing her arms. She had heard enough about truth to look down on people who were still naive enough to invoke it when speaking. 
"The truth is," he repeated more boldly, his voice growing stronger and more firm, his eyes never leaving hers, "that you will never be alone." 
He let go of his arm, and embraced the woman standing across from him, who stood stiffly in his grasp. It made for an odd scene; two blood stained teenagers -- barely more than children -- on the edge of collapse, apparently hugging. 

December 2nd

There's a nostalgic feeling that wells up within me when I turn my head and see the glow of Christmas lights from my bed. There's always a moment of childlike shock -- "It's so bright! How is it so bright!" -- which always gives way to a smug reminder: my birthdays here, Christmas is getting closer. The glow right outside my window is white, tinged at the edge with green from another light. There's even a bit of red in the bottom left-hand corner. They illuminate the hour, and shine through the curtains. 

Christmas is coming. 

My birthday's right around the corner. 

[22 days until Christmas; 6 days until my birthday; 5 days until the party; 4 days until my graduation and open house.]

November 24, 2013

One-Shots (Just for Fun)

______ _______ One Shots (1-3)
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[I]Shortly after Uriel joins Vidar, he reflects on Vidar's vocal charisma.[/I]
He mentally paused. What made Vidar's voice seem so... Different? Maybe it was the upward tilt of his timbre when asking a question. Perhaps it was the musical way the pitch if his voice became higher then lower when speaking. 
Or maybe it was simply the passion behind every word he uttered. The diamond-hard dedication beneath his tongue's phrasing, or the emotion that oozed from his every pronounced word. 
~~
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[I]Saul dies while Uriel struggles to make sense of it all.[/I]
Saul coughed once, twice, then heaved. It was painful for his former friends to watch his body shut down. 
"Why would you protect a monster?" Uriel choked out, whispering to Saul's unmoving visage. "Why would you sacrifice yourself for him?!" 
Uriel's anger simmered and threatened to boil over. He had lost both his mentors -- one to revenge, and another to sacrifice. As Saul's labored breathing continued to slow, his eyes flickered open like a dying candle's final flame. His tired eyes, covered in a glaze, slowly drifted around and finally focused on Uriel. 
"Would you not do anything... for your family?" 
Uriel's lips parted, but no words came out. His eyes widened and his expression shifted from anger, to a state of shock, and a pain that suddenly ran deeper than losing a friend. 
"Saul... Saul! It shouldn't have been you! He didn't deserve you! I, I didn't deserve you! ... I'm so sorry, please don't go. Don't go, don't go..."
~~
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[I]Vidar betrays his group of fighters and joins Chao after slaying The Wheel of Fortune.[/I]
"If we take him together, we could still win!"
"No... He's the only other one who understands what has to be done. The only one who understands The Numbers, the blight they are. I can't believe it took me so long to realize..."
There was a strange look in Vidar's eyes. Uriel took several steps back, nervously looking from Chao to Vidar, back to Chao. Something broke inside of Vidar -- he was grinning lopsidedly and slowly stepping towards Uriel and the others. Everything was still for a split second, then it all fell apart. 
"Run!" Uriel screamed. Vidar kicked off towards Uriel, drawing his sword and laughing. Chao stood still and observed. Uriel blocked Vidar's swing, blocking his way while the others fled. Vidar hacked viciously at Uriel, cackling the entire time. Uriel blocked each stroke, then pushed back with a blow of his own. Vidar lost his balance and fell unceremoniously on his butt.
~~

November 21, 2013

Genesis and Exodus

This idea came to me when I saw World War Z. I think I'm going to revisit it and expand my idea some time soon. 

Genesis
After a creature -- zombies, aliens, genetic monstrosity, whatever -- overthrows humanity and all but wipes them out, they gather their resources into one last stronghold. From this super-secure, ultra-careful base, humanity's survivors create mecha that go out and "purge" sectors. They are very slowly retaking the earth. Because they wipe *everything* out when they purge the land, their base also doubles as an arboretum, and a "Noah's Ark" of sorts. Brilliant minds are constantly at work, because their work is indispensable. Advanced technology is at the heart of humanity's struggle. 
Endgame: they realize that Earth isn't theirs anymore. With scientific breakthroughs, they discover they'll be able to terraform the moon in half the time it'll take them to finish purging, meaning a quarter of the time it'll take them to bring the earth back to "livable." They'll live on the moon, and give the earth to the creatures. 

November 18, 2013

WILT 8/4/13

What I Learned Today (8/4/13 Edition)
Each generation has the potential to overcome the previous one, but only if they strive to be the best they can be... We are one ever-improving loop of generations. 
“It is the struggle itself that is most important. We must strive to be more than we are. It does not matter that we will not reach our ultimate goal. The effort itself yields its own reward.”
- Gene Roddenberry, delivered by Brent Spiner as "Data"
Corrolary: JST Matt., 5:50: "Ye are therefore commanded to be perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect." Even if we can't reach true perfection in this life, our efforts towards an impossible goal will reward us, and will enable us to achieve this goal in the life after this one. 

Blue Bird Fanslation Baikanon

I've never done this song before; my familiarity with it comes from the English dub's lyrics for the American import of Naruto. However, I love Ikimono Gakari and I think this song is one of their best. It's also a blast to sing. 


Blue Bird by Ikimono Gakari

If I was a blue bird,
I would never stop flying!
I'd strive for that blue, blue sky!

I'm starting to learn what sadness is,
And I'm beginning to understand pain.
My feelings for you are starting to turn,
Into tumultuous words!

Leaving behind my old self,
Waking up from a strange dream,
I unfurl my wings and take flight!

If I was a bluebird,
I'd never stop flying!
I'd aim for,
The white, white clouds!

I know that if I break through
I'll finally find my home!
So I'll keep trying,
To break through that blue, blue sky!
That blue, blue sky!
That blue, blue sky!

A decisive noise echoed out 
And the barred window
Finally broke 
Look, I'm so sick of my cage,
That I'm leaving it in pieces!

My heart and soul 
Unite as I kick off 
Of the ground,
And I take off, 
For the sun!

I think if I fly,
I'll be able to catch it.
I'm tempted by your distant, distant voice.
I reach for your dazzling, dazzling hand,
Until I reach beyond the blue, blue sky!

Sometimes I get lost 
I'm sure you understand 
I won't give up, 
I'll follow, 
The rising sun!

If I was a blue bird,
I wouldn't ever stop flying!
I'm looking for those white, white clouds!
I'll pierce the sky, to find where I belong!
So I'll keep trying, 
Until I pierce that blue, blue sky!
To break that blue, blue sky!
To shatter that blue, blue sky! 

By My Side Fanslation Baikanon

Like my Moshimo Fanslation, this is more of an artistic interpretation meant for singing than a word by word direct translation. 

By My Side

It's alright if you don't, 
Have an answer, 
For your problems.
Just keep on looking for it.
Searching's better than finding,
That's part of growing up.
Even if my heart wants me to run away and give up!

(By my side, 
By my side~)

If my search for life's answers,
Brings me to your eyes,
I want to stop there and rest.
There couldn't,
Be anything more important,
Than me and you holding hands!
So yes, right here and right now,
I need your hand, I need your love, 
I need you here right by my side~

By my side~

Thank you for believing in me.
I think I know what's important.
My life has purpose,
My life has meaning,
You've helped me discover that truth!

(By my side, 
By my side~)

Even if your fear takes you,
Further and further away from me, 
I won't ever let go of your hand!
This world is,
Truly beautiful~
You've shown me that by our love,
And now I want to fully live!
Right here, right now,
I need you here right by my side~

By my side~

(By my side,
By my side~)
Ah, ah~
(By my side~)

Don't ever go of our hope,
Yeah, ah~
Don't ever let go of my hand!
By my side~

(By my side)
Ah, ah
(By my side)
(By my side)
Ah, ah
(By my side)

November 17, 2013

My Disposition Shift

The other day at seminary, we were asked about how we think the gospel has changed our dispositions. The following is what I wrote as I reflected. 

How has my disposition changed?
When I was dating this girl, I was totally focused on being happy with her -- making the gospel work wasn't even a thought. It was all about what I could do to be happy with her. Not only was it unhealthy, but it didn't last. That girl was my top priority over everything. 
Now, I've experienced a change where I care about mine and God's happiness more than anything else. Because of this, I care more about every single person. In a way, I've dramatically increased my circle of care. My heart is filling up with more and more people. What's ironic is that the girl I dated is still there in my heart. I still care about her a lot. But now, my disposition has changed so that I care in a more healthy way, and for lots more people. 

November 16, 2013

Updated Moshimo Fanslation

Moshimo Fanslation Baikanon
I dreamt of someone from long ago, 
They ran away and hid in tall grass
I chased after the fading memory 
I can't reach them, no matter how frustrated I get 
It's so far

How long has it been?
My hearts trapped
In a time that's long gone 

If only, this was a dream!
I could undo all my mistakes!
I could live true to my heart!
Instead I'm running after the past
Trying to escape my loneliness
Grasping on to the times when you and I were one!

I'm living in a world where you're only a memory!

When my memories finally start to fade
I realize forgetting is the most painful thing of all
Ah
Even the deepest heartbreak can keep on festering 
Cancers can keep on spreading

If only, this was a dream
I could see you again and again!
My feelings which won't die
Might get a bit of closure!
I'm still running after you
Sifting through my slipping memory
The future's looking cold, and the present's getting old

I'm living in a world where you're only a memory!

Even though you're no longer here 
The world keeps turning around and around!
I won't let time take away my memories!
I won't let go of you!

If only this was a dream!
I could see you one last time!
My feelings won't budge 
Even if my memories do!
I have hope that we'll meet again, 
Even if it's just in a dream!

I can stand through any pain until that day! 
The future, grown from the past, will surpass the present 

I'm living in a world where you're only a memory!

November 10, 2013

One Shot Songs

I've been posting what I call "One Shot Songs" on my YouTube channels. They're basically just recordings of me singing a song through. It's low quality. I don't have any video or even an accompaniment on the first ones. But... Maybe you'll enjoy them?
Here's the links to the first two. 
Sorry if I sound gross. 

Soaring and Sinking

Found this just all written up. 

I Refuse to Sink/I Will Soar Up High 
The phrase "I refuse to sink" is a popular one. It denotes a refusal to give into emotional distress, a refusal to let yourself be destroyed. But... It also says that you're in the middle of that process. You're treading water. You're saying that you won't let your past get to you, but you won't think of the future either. It's focused on what's wrong, what can go wrong - what will go wrong. It's a defeatist attitude! 
I propose that there are better phrases out there. For example, the one I use: "I will soar up high." I prefer this phrase in every way. First off, the consequences of not managing to reach your goal ("to soar") is far less dire than failure in the other ("to [not] sink"). The word "will" shows you're living in the present and the future, working towards goals. More importantly, it declares that you can do something. You are not helpless, barely keeping your head above the water. Rather than "not" doing a negative thing, I "will" do a positive one, once again contrasting the different attitudes. Of course, both can be used at the same time.
Ex: Not only do I refuse to sink, but I will soar up high. 
But most importantly, to my present and future, I will soar up high. 
Side note: Anchors don't keep anything floating, and they certainly don't keep you from sinking. To replace the anchor that normally accompanies the former phrase, I'd use a pair of wings to symbolize the latter. 

WILT 5/5/13

What I Learned Today (5/5/13)
- Brother Goodrick remarked that having grandchildren, and children, is really the best thing. Going off of that, and Frankl's remarks (and my own thoughts) about love, growing our family and loving it is paramount because it's more to love, and more people who love you. 
- It's also important because if you're in a good family, the more people you add to yours aren't in 'bad' families. 

WILT 6/1/13

What I've Learned Today (6/1/13 Edition)
- What do we stand to lose by striving for our best?

- After Earth =\= Scientology. 

WILT 5/5/13

What I Learned Today (5/5/13)
- Brother Goodrick remarked that having grandchildren, and children, is really the best thing. Going off of that, and Frankl's remarks (and my own thoughts) about love, growing our family and loving it is paramount because it's more to love, and more people who love you. 
- It's also important because if you're in a good family, the more people you add to yours aren't in 'bad' families. 

Good Decision Making

Ala Brother Wofford's missionary prep class. 

How to make good decisions 
1) Pause (reflect)
2) Ask Clarifying Questions
3) Decide (decisively)

November 9, 2013

2/23/13

WILT's are my random notes from across the day. Sometimes they're based on church talks, movies, songs, etc. Later WILT's note that, but not these earlier ones. 

What I Learned Today 
(2/23/13 Edition)
- You should never depend on a person's presence to make an event enjoyable. If it's a requirement that a certain person is present, that event probably isn't worth it. 
- We ought to "check things out" whenever we hear a siren in our life, regardless of whether or not it's commonplace. 
- Unity can reduce damage to one person, by spreading it amongst the participants. 
- "Fake tears hurt only others, but a fake smile hurts only yourself."
- Recurring motifs are doubly effective for groups, both to promote unity and pride, as well as to increase community recognition. 

Smurfs

This might be a weird one. 
We were running commercials for the Smurfs 2 DVD at my workplace, and I started thinking about what appealed to people about the smurfs, from a storytelling perspective. I had an epiphany, and decided that, in my opinion, the key plot point is Gargamel's unholy obsession with a near-idealic people. The following came out the dark recesses of my brain over an hour LNG period. 

Smurfs (Baikanon)
- The most important aspect is that Gargamel is obsessed with the smurfs. 
- Gargamel sells his soul to a wicked being who wants smurfs in return for a magic cure to the kingdoms problems. 
- Azrael -- the cat -- could be the being, in that form to supervise his work?
- Maybe Gargamel is this spirit's name, and it's mistakenly attributed to him (such as if he attacked the smurfs, saying it's in the name of Gargamel, and they assume that's his name, etc). Or, Gargamel could be a name he is given to exemplify his fallen state. 
- Gargamel would be a noble xharactee at first blush. A benevolent magician under employ of the King is what I'm thinking. 
- Smurfs are stars that fell to earth. Thus, they posses mystic properties. 
- The key idea here is that Gargamel is obsessed with smurfs. This obsession would stem from this deal with the devil, or maybe because they're ingredients in a potion he needed to save the kingdom. 
- Smurfs are intentionally archetypal characters, because stars represent human traits?
- Overall, Gargamel should be a tragic figure. He was a good person, dedicated to the kingdom, but then fell awry when the kingdom was in trouble and he couldn't save it under his own power. 

September 19, 2013

Notes

I am a note kind of person. I write people notes.
I am a friendly person. I try to be kind. 
I am -- or try to be -- an inspirational person. I try to help people see the best in themselves, and to be the best. 
So, when I write, I express thanks to people. I tell them what I think of them, in positive ways. I encourage. I try to do this in all of my letters. It's just how I am. I'm affectionate with lots of people. If my writing seems intimate, it's because I don't easily comprehend what's "too much," and it's because most people shy away from expressing their feelings and truly trying to encourage each other in this day and age. 
My letters are simple. No hidden messages. I bear my thoughts, and say nice things. That's just how I am. It might be awkward to some people, and I'm sorry for that. But it's my personality. 

September 16, 2013

The Iron Rod

Seminary! 

One of the most common reference in the LDS lexicon is "the iron rod." This come from Lehi's vision of the tree of life, and is a metaphor. In the dream, the rod led the way to the tree through mists of darkness and there were many people clinging to it. The rod represents the word of God: the scriptures, words of prophets, and other direct revelation to us. If we hold fast to it, we can reach the tree and partake of its fruit, which represents the love of God. 

Church of the Devil

Seminary, September 4th. 
We talked about the "great and abominable church" both Nephi and Lehi saw in their visions. Commonly referred to as the devil, there's a lot of people who mix up what this phrase refers to. Some people think it refers to a specific group, such as the Catholic Church. This is incorrect. The abominable church is anything - be it social, political, religious organization, etc - that takes us away from Jesus Christ and his gospel.    


Also, as a fun aside: turns out, Bephi saw visions of the modern era, from Columbus discovering America, to the revolutionary war, to Joseph Smith translating the Book of Mormon. How neat!  

Results

Seminary, September 5th. 
We focused on how we all have to work hard for things, even our talents. My thought was: some people are really gifted and don't even have to really work. They're rare, but they're out there. What if you could boil it down to: effort x talent = results?

September 11, 2013

Testing

Today in seminary we took a test about basic doctrine to help the church tweak its curriculum/lesson plans. It took a while, but most of us finished in a timely manner (I finished first (#nolife)). It wasn't unpleasant. Watched "Epic," tonight. It had some strong material, and some not-so-strong material. Overall, a solid film. I've realized I'm far more critical of movies when I watch them now. 

September 7, 2013

It Might've Been Awkward Asking

The next day, we discussed how Nephi and his brothers were commanded to go to Jerusalem... Again. They went and retrieved Ishmael, who I presume was one of Lehi's contemporaries, and his family and brought them into the wilderness. Interestingly, Ishmael just ups and goes when they arrive. 
"Wanna leave Jerusalem and live in the desert?"
"Yeah, why not. Lemme grab the family."
It was important that Ishmael and his family came, because this gave Lehi's and Ishmael's children (and Zoram) the opportunity to marry and have families. Families are integral to Heavenly Father's plans for our happiness in the next life, which is why we are sealed together forever in the temple. No "til death do us part" for us. 

Missing Day

I'm missing my seminary notes for the 29th, which actually upsets me. As such, we'll be moving on to the 30th. 

That day, we talked about 1 Nephi Chapter 6, 9, and the Words of Mormon. Our focus was on how Nephi was commanded to create two sets of plates: the Large Plates of Nephi and the Small Plates of Nephi. The Large Plates of Nephi were about the history of Nephi's posterity and that of his brothers. It detailed the wars, kings, and sundry other events. The Small Plates of Nephi exclusively focused on spiritual things.  The Small Plates would be added in their entirety to the Book of Mormon when Mormon abridged the records of various prophets to make the Book of Mormon we know and love. 

September 2, 2013

What I've Been Watching

Lately, I've been playing "The Office" in the background while I work on school, cook, clean, etc. and I've been enthralled by the character work (when I bother paying attention). There's just something about the writing, and the acting... The characters are obvious archetypes, but they're so much more: they're individuals. They learn and grow and tease and get frustrated. They're consistent, which is more than a lot of shows can say. They all have their individual coping methods, verbal tics, facial expressions... It's wonderful. They're absolutely unique, and it's enthralling. This far in, my favorite character is Jim, followed by Pam. I'm loving this show so far. It's hilarious, with heaps of character development. 

August 28, 2013

Upcoming Content

Seems silly doesn't it? I post one real article today, then a list of things to do write-ups for. To be frank, I'm a bit overwhelmed. I have so much content I want to provide you guys with. Here's a sample: 
Seminary (Today and Yesterday)
Naruto Reviews (2)
Family Night 
Countdown 8-22
English Portfolios
"What's my quorum?"
Work Experience 
Song Parody

The Aftermath (Thoughts from Seminary: 8/27/13)

Yesterday's seminary lesson focused on the aftermath of Nephi and his brothers' little adventure, namely the plight of his parents, Lehi and Sariah. 
Okay, so Lehi sends his sons to retrieve the scriptures from Laban. They're gone for days. After a while, Sariah fears for there lives, and, believing them to have died, starts complaining. She uses some of the same language Laman and Lemuel use, specifically calling Lehi a "visionary man." This is the usage of the word meaning not practical. Sariah is extremely upset about being in the wilderness and having lost her sons. Lehi comforts her, saying The Lord will prepare a way for them, and, funnily enough, agrees with her that he is a visionary man - and those same visions saved them from Jerusalem's imminent destruction and showed Lehi the grace and love of God. What a great way to respond! Of course, everything's swell when Nephi et al return, and the experience builds Sariah's faith in her husband, and in God. 
We also talked a bit about how Lehi's family treated the plates. They were a treasure to them. The first thing Lehi does is read them, and share with his family. If only we could treat the scriptures in that same manner -- desired, treasured, and loved. They were truly grateful to have the plates. We should be grateful for our scripture as well. 

Retrieving the Brass Plates, Part 2

This part of the story is found entirely in 1 Nephi chapter 5.  
Where we last left off, Nephi was creeping along in the city, not having a single clue as to what he should do. Then, lo and behold, Laban stumbles across his path, drunk as a skunk and passed out! It's hard to imagine a better delivery "into your hands" than that. The Spirit tells Nephi he needs to kill Laban, but Nephi is vehemently opposed to that idea. After all, "thou shalt not kill" is a commandment! And Nephi has always kept the commandments. The Spirit tells Nephi the Lord has delivered Laban into Nephi's hands, and tells Nephi it is God's will that Laban should die. It essentially gives Nephi a "needs of the many" speech, saying, "it is better that one man should perish, than an entire nation dwindle and perish in unbelief." Nephi obeys Heavenly Father, and slays Laban with his sword. After this, he disguises himself using Laban's clothes and goes to talk to Zoram, Laban's servant. Zoram brings Nephi the plates, and Nephi, still disguised, has Zoram accompany him outside Jerusalem. Nephi's brothers see Laban (that is, Nephi disguised as Laban) and start to flee. Nephi calls out to them, letting them know, "hey! It's me! Nephi!" Of course, Zoram realizes that means Nephi's wearing Laban's clothes (and probably killed him) so HE starts to run. Nephi grabs him and swears to Zoram that he can come with them and be free. Zoram accepts, and goes with Nephi and his brothers back to their father Lehi. 

August 26, 2013

Giving Assigments

These are thoughts following a priest's quorum presidency meeting. 
Number one thing to improve: youth leadership. 
Solutions: activities will be led and planned by the boys, with the aid if an advisor. The youths will be asked if they will plan an activity, and advisors will be assigned -- leading into point two. 
We are not a volunteer group. We give assignments and make commitments. Rather than ask the boys if they'll do something, assign them to it. Ask for commitments, not interest. 
Another thing: Duty to God. We've been slacking with that. 
Solution: Work on sections as a quorum, and plan more activities where DtG is the focus, not a side story. 
Missing members: assign present quorum members to contact and inform those not present, then report to me, who will report to bishop. This adds accountability on all levels, ensuring it gets done. 
That's all I'm sharing for now. I'm first up with youth-led activities, with Brother Carpenter as my aid. I'm pretty excited for it; I'll post an After Action Report (AAR) when it's over. 

Thoughts from Seminary: 8/26/13

Today in seminary, we went over 1 Nephi Chapter 3, then abridged our way through Chapter 4. 
Here's what happens: Lehi and his family (his wife, Sariah; and his sons, Laman; Lemuel; Sam; and Nephi) have been traveling through the wilderness for three days. Lehi is warned by God that they need to retrieve the Brass Plates from Laban, a powerful, wicked, man who lives in the city of Jerusalem. The Brass Plates are essentially the first five books of the Old Testament (The Books of Moses), along with a few other books, including the prophecies of Isaiah. Basically, Heavenly Father wanted Lehi and his family to have scriptures, so they'd be able to keep his commandments and thrive, both spiritually and physically. 
So, Lehi tells his four sons they need to retrieve the plates. Laman and Lemuel, of course, start complaining. They whine about how powerful Laban is, and how much of a moron they think their father is. Nephi, on the other hand, says that he will go and do, because he knows God will never ask us to do anything without preparing a way for us to accomplish the thing he commands. Sadly, we don't hear much about Sam. I like Sam. From what we know, Sam was a good kid who I envision as being Nephi's sidekick, even though Sam's older than him. 
Nephi convinces his brothers to go, citing how The Lord helped Moses accomplish a seemingly impossible task when he brought the Israelites out of Egyptian slavery and to a choice land. When they get back to Jerusalem, Nephi has the idea that they may as well just ASK if they can have the plates. After all, Laban isn't a religious guy. They draw lots (a way of saying they played an ancient game of chance) to see who would go ask. Laman was the lucky man who drew the lot, so he visits Laban at his place. When he politely asks for the plates, Laban becomes infuriated, saying that Laman is a robber, and calls his guard. Laman (wisely) flees back to his brothers. 
Nephi has another idea: let's go back to our abandoned house and grab all their gold and silver, and buy the plates from Laban! This is a solid plan. So, they bring their riches to Laban. He decides he'll just kill them, keep the plates, and steal their wealth. The boys flee once again. 
At this point, Laman and Lemuel are ticked. They've lost their money, and they almost lost their lives. They're so angry that they grab some sticks and start wailing on Sam and Nephi. Then, an *angel* shows up, and commands them to stop. He tells them that Heavenly Father *will* deliver Laban into their hands. What an amazing promise! Laman and Lemuel are skeptical and continue to murmur, but Nephi andSam have their heads on straight, and know what's up. 
Nephi has one more idea. While his brothers hide, he creeps into the city. 
At this point, I'd like to clarify: Nephi doesn't know what he's doing. He's acting on the spirit, following its promptings. 
Wow. This is getting really long. The rest of the story will come with tomorrow's post! 

Thoughts from Seminary: 8/23/13

On Friday, we talked about 1 Nephi Chapter 2. Once again, we had an emphasis on gratitude, even when things seem bleak. In 1 Nephi 2 in particular, Lehi, having been warned by God, takes his family, packs the camels, and leaves Jerusalem. Lehi was likely a prosperous merchant with a thriving business -- we know for sure that they left "riches" behind. Yet he leaves all of this, and essentially goes to camp-out in the desert. His two eldest sons -- Laman and Lemuel -- complain constantly, calling their father a fool, saying he's deluded. Nephi, on the other hand, prays to The Lord, and finds out what his dad knows for himself. 
In the end, Lehi still praises The Lord. He offers sacrifices in the wilderness after they left Jerusalem. Despite some unsupportive children, a loss of worldly wealth, and harsh living circumstances, Lehi (and Nephi) keep their eyes on what's important, and they're blessed for that. 

August 23, 2013

Awesome Voice

Seminary post is coming later!

Working at AMC Guest Services!
I had a terrific experience at work! I was working at Guest Services (think customer service) and I helped a lady get some tickets credited to AMC's reward program, Stubs, and as we were finishing up, I exclaimed, "Enjoy your film!" Standard operating procedure, right? She replied, in all seriousness, "You have an awesome voice!" I kind of laughed and said. "You too!" because I thought she had said 'have an awesome night! I then realized what she had said, and I was all, "Oh thank you so much!" And going with the nervous giggle and everything. A stranger had told me I had an awesome voice! I've never even received that compliment! 
Fast forward about half an hour/an hour. The same woman came back and asked to renew her Stubs card! She said I had been so nice she wanted to renew with me. This means that while in the concessions stand, somebody ran her card and told her it was expiring, and she turned them down, just so she could walk back over to Guest Services and renew with me! She thought I was kind enough to warrant going out of her way to show she appreciated me! This completely obliterated some stressful things that happened at work earlier, and totally made my weekend. 

August 22, 2013

Thoughts from Seminary: 8/22/13

First off, happy birthday to my sister, Charity! 
Second, today we talked about Lehi and the first chapter of the Book of Nephi. I had an opportunity to continue my tradition of goofy character voices. Anyways, this chapter's lesson's theme was part gratitude, part trials. The focus was on Lehi, father of Nephi, a prophet. He tried to tell the inhabitants of Jerusalem about their impending destruction, like Jeremiah, Ezekiel, and other prophets. He sees visions of the destruction of Jerusalem and its people, and you know what his reaction is? He thanks God. Because of his vision, he's able to warn his family, and any who will listen, so that they can escape. He is glad for trials, because they strengthen him and make him more like Christ.
Personally, I have difficulties sometimes. I'm sure you do too. But scientists, therapists, and scripture all say that difficult times are easier to weather when we are positive, when we lean on God, and have faith. It also promotes positive character growth and helps us be better people with more compassion and empathy. 

August 20, 2013

Thoughts from Seminary: 8/20/13

Today in Seminary we went over the Title Page of the Book of Mormon, as well as the Testimony of the Three and Eight Witnesses. Good stuff. I don't have much to say about this; I only suggest reading them. The title page of the Book of Mormon is a fantastic summary of what it is, so that's cool.
In other news, I went to the park today with Noel, Peter, and Tyler, while Charity, Christian, and Grace were at piano lessons. Mom and dad return tomorrow evening; the past few days have actually gone pretty well, even though they're gone. I do work tomorrow however, so I pray Charity is up to the challenge.

August 19, 2013

What I Learned in Seminary Today: The Plan of Happiness

Today in Seminary, we talked about the Plan of Happiness (also known as the Plan of: Redemption, Salvation, and Exaltation). At its core, the plan is very simple. It tells us where we come from, why we are here, and where we are going. Part of this post is lesson material, but most of it is my own ruminations on the subject from years of learning and personal experience and interpretation.

Where did we come from?
We come from a loving Heavenly Father (God) who wants to help us progress and become like unto him. We existed in the pre-mortal life as spirits, where we all existed together in harmony. We learned, and loved there. While we were there, we progressed as individuals, but there was one problem.
We had limits.

Why are we here?
Without a physical body, like God's, we could only go so far. Because God loves his children, he wants to help us become like him, so he created a plan where we could all receive bodies and end up together again. This plan involved creating an earth where we could receive bodies and have our agency tested. There was another problem here though: all laws have consequences. Blessings, if they're kept, and punishments if they're broken. Heaven, Earth, the nature of God -- they're all predicated upon laws. Laws such as mercy, and justice. While living as humans, we would be subject to temptation and make mistakes. We wouldn't always choose the right. Because of this, we would accumulate sins. Because no unclean thing can dwell in the sight of God (we wouldn't feel comfortable in his presence, like a child who knows they've done something wrong) we wouldn't be able to join him until we took care of our impurities. Because God is perfect, he has to fulfill all laws, including mercy and justice. Mercy dictates that we are forgiven and allowed to move on, but justice demands that there be a payment for our mistakes. How can two seemingly contrary laws be reconciled?
Is this a paradox that invalidates the nature of God?
No. The answer is simple: there must be an intermediary. Somebody who will take our sins from us, and pay the price in our stead. We know the identity of this savior: Jesus Christ, our eldest brother. He lived a life without sin, a perfect life, and then took our sins and paid for him. Because of Christ, we can repent of our sins, we can change and improve. If we just take the hand Jesus is stretching out towards us, we can move past our sins and become clean. When he performed the atonement, paying for our sins, he literally paid the price for all our sins, experiencing the agony our mistakes caused us. Not only that, he experienced everything in our lives -- bad break-ups, bicycle accidents, last year's flu -- all of it. Because he understands our lives so intimately, this makes him the perfect advocate for us. Somebody who can step in for us on judgement day, and represent us to God.

Where are we going?
After we die, we are going to be waiting for the second coming of Christ, when all of humanity will be resurrected and judged. This waiting place is known as "Spirit Paradise and Spirit Prison." This is not to say that there is a good place and a bad place: there is one place, but everybody's state of mind will be different. Those who have heard the Gospel will understand what's going on and effectively be in paradise. Those who haven't, or refuse to understand, will feel as if they are in prison -- unable to progress. While Christ's body lay in the tomb for three days, he organized a giant missionary effort among all those righteous souls in Paradise to go to those in Prison and teach them the Gospel, so that they would be ready for the resurrection, and so that they would be happier. Judgment will consist of a review of our life, with Christ and God. This is when Christ will step in and explain the circumstances of our actions, acting almost like a lawyer. After this, we will go to one of three heavenly kingdoms, each of which are traditionally likened unto a heavenly body of light:
The Telestial Kingdom, compared to the light a distant star provides. We learn from the scriptures that even this kingdom, the lowest of the three, is far better than our lives here in mortality.
The Terrestial Kingdom, compared to the light the moon provides. This kingdom will be far above the Telestial Kingdom, yet below the final one.
The Celestial Kingdom, compared to the light the noon-day sun provides. This is the ultimate heaven This is where God himself dwells, and will boast the smallest population of the three kingdoms. The goal is for everybody to make it here, so we can be together again.
In addition to all of this, we know there are degrees of glory in each of these kingdoms. Heaven truly is a person experience. Each person will be in the kingdom they feel comfortable in; some people will only feel happy in the Telestial Kingdom where the Holy Ghost reigns, while others will be happier in the Terrestial Kingdom, where Christ will reign. Because an integral part of the Lord's plan is for families to be together forever, travel from one kingdom to a lower is possible. The Lord would never separate a family. After all, everything he does is out of love for us. He gives us trials to strengthen us, blesses us in ways we can't see, and is involved in our lives intimately. He loves us, Christ loves, and I love you.
The Plan of Salvation boils down to this: God loves us. We love our Father. To be more like him, we came to Earth to receive bodies. Christ loves us. We love Christ. He paid for our sins. Because of that, we can all be together again in the next life. In the end, all of everything boils down to one thing:
Love.

August 18, 2013

What I Learned in Church Today

AN: Will be cleaned up tomorrow. Just some of my personal notes from church today. Loved it. A few of these thoughts really struck home and are gonna form their own post at some point. Enjoy. 

What I Learned Today (8/18/13 Edition)
 
Sacrament Meeting 
- Wanting to teach so badly. Wanting to understand their life, to be like them. Missionaries truly are spark plugs. (Juan's mission return talk)
- Separate, but complementary roles. (High council speaker)
Sunday School 
- 5 things to strengthen the family. 
1. Scripture, prayer, and family night together. 
2. Talk to their teachers. (Network)
3. Have family rules. Wholesome family traditions and rituals. 
4. Pray for help (God's a better parent than you are). 
5. Bear your testimony. 
(Sister Guileman's lesson.)

Priest Quorum
Our bodies have a portion of God's power. We insult him by misusing it. Our bodies provide ultimate potential. 
Chastity is a test run for god hood. Can you imagine God creating life willy-nilly?
Jesus is a physician. Guilt is an ailment to the soul. - Scott Peck, lesson on chastity. 

Stake general Priesthood Meeting
- President Ross -- Three forms of leadership: 
1. Personal
Discipline, practice. Dedication. Envision your goal, work to it, work beyond it. This life is the time to prepare to meet God. Ultimate goal. Need to lead yourself there. Something will lead your life if you don't. "Where there is no vision, the people perish." 
5 Suggestions for self leadership. 
A. Faith in The Lord Jesus Christ. Faith that he will redeem, and he will save. Obedience, prayer, and scripture study includes this. 
B. Love. 
Love one another. Overcomes natural instincts and self-fixation. Fosters service, and missionary attitudes. Help others and be helped by others. Love like God to acquire his attributes. 
C. Obedience. 
Christ is a perfect example. Set an example for others. Relieve guidance from the Holy Ghost. If Ye love me, keep my commandments. Cut the distractions. Be inspired. 
D. Unity. 
Be one, like the Godhead. Essential for success. Children of God are social, interactive, and supportive. Relationships and service perfect us. Put others first. Love others. This brings joy and happiness. If we can't find happiness in this life, we can't find it in the next. 
E. Sacrifice. 
At all costs, follow the Savior. We will be blessed. The Savior is worth everything and anything. 
Additionally: We will be free, open up new doors, and be able to grow and change. 
2. Family
Few roles are as important. Success in the home is worth more than successes elsewhere. Chosen by God for this role. Accepted this when married. Don't abdicate to wife, don't leave it vacant. Not default; requires leadership and effort. 
A. Give blessings, baptize, and ordain your children. 
B. Personally direct family prayer, scripture study, and FHE. This will show it's importance to your children. 
C. Attend meetings together as a family. Lead. Not the wife. Be happy for church. Encourage, sustain, and support. 
D. Go on father/daughter, father/son dates, recitals, programs, etc. It is important you're there personally. Business is not more important. 
E. Go on outings together. Vacations, camp-outs, etc. 
F. Have regular one on one talks together. Discuss life paths, choices, etc. 
G. Teach your children to work. Funds for mission, college. It's a disservice not to teach them. Teach them money use.
H. Encourage good literature/art/music. Keep the filth of the world away. Pictures of significant events, church certificates, etc. 
I. Regularly attend the temple. Your children will see. 
J. Let your children see your joy from serving in the church. It will be contagious. 
Additionally: "I will not begrudge the time my husband gives in service of The Lord." 
3. Church
Three keys. 
A. Lead by example. 
B. Teach. 
C. Increase faith in Jesus Christ. 
Additionally: Most powerful teachings are personal. The Gospel is more powerful than anything else. It changes hearts, mends souls, and unites people. 
Summary: They are all divine. Do more with your time than simply spend it. 

- (Elder Bills) Lord has called for a hastening of his work. Need to be more prepared, at a younger age. Hastening preparation for a mission: three things. From Section 11. From Joseph to Hyrum. Hyrum was pumped for a mission. The Lord's council for mission prep. 
1. Keep the commandments. Be worthy. Spirit is with those who are worthy. Spirit converts. 
2. Seek to obtain my word (before declaring). Need to know the gospel to teach it. Basic principles. Need a testimony. Write on the tablet of your heart. You have to be converted to teach and convert. 
Tongue shall be loosed, have spirit and his word and power. 
3. Be a missionary now. Best way to learn is to do. Pray for opportunities, look for them. Share in simple ways. Go out with the missionaries. 
Additionally: Prepare for your potential. If you're not prepared, you can't live up to your potential. 

- (Ben Iba) Sharing the gospel. 
There are times when the gospel hits especially hard. Look for those times and apply the correct principle. 
Members find people for the missionaries to teach! Seriously. 
1. Success lies in inviting others to hear the gospel. 
We can't control conversion, but we can control invitation. Don't change your relationship with them because of your invitation. Use church lingo. 
2. Recognize people aren't usually interested in the doctrine, but in feeling closer to God and having a path and greater sense of purpose. 
3. Focus on what they want to know. Put the ball in their court, and get them to ask questions. 
4. Act in love. Show compassion. "Why are so many people joining? God trusts your ward."
Look for new people, welcome them, try to help them. 

- (Michael Norton) 
Are we going to be personally hasten ourselves, so we can keep up with the stone cut out of a hill? The peloton moves quicker and quicker as it goes. In the peloton, people can perform better. More and more drop out because of the peloton's hastening. It takes extreme effort to catch up. Team members go back for dropped bikers to bring them back. This can stop the whole team from reaching the finish line if they fail. Can't get on and off the train anymore. The train is moving too quick. Becoming is more than doing. 

- (President McClellan) "Active Reacting"
Section 138: host of rulers in the church chosen before this life. 
"Am I part of this game? Am I ready to mingle with this congregation if righteousness?" 
Don't believe in your own bogus comments. It applies to everyone. We all need help. Repentance is the most hopeful thing you can hear. It means we all have the capability of choosing change. Through the savior, our changes can make us like him. His power helps us change. When we go through him, the end result is 1) we are clean, 2) we are like him. Everyone will be clean. Everyone's sins will be payed for. (In a sense, purgatory is a real thing. A thing of our own creation, that will happen). Our choice is to either do it of our own volition and get the added benefit of becoming Christlike, or not. 
3 Things to Change: 
1. How we think. 
The Earth is designed to permit us to change. What can we do next?
2. What we do. 
For example, missionaries keep commandments for two full years. They are too busy for distractions. 
We *can* change. 
Think if ideas, make connections. A fruit of the spirit. 
I must've lost the third point. Or combined it with the second. xP This was my favorite talk. 

August 16, 2013

Thoughts from Seminary: Verbs that help you learn (8/16/13)

This morning in seminary the lesson was about scripture study, and how we can more effectively learn from things like General Conference (which is coming soon!) and seminary. The big thing was realize WHO is speaking, WHAT is going on, background, etc, and to WHOM are they speaking, when you read from the scriptures. We talked over several different scriptures and several quotes from general authorities this morning, but there's one passage that sticks out to me as the crux of the lesson:

3 Nephi, 17: 2-3:
I aperceive that ye are weak, that ye cannot bunderstand all my words which I am commanded of the Father to speak unto you at this time.
 Therefore, go ye unto your homes, and aponder upon the things which I have said, and ask of the Father, in my name, that ye may understand, and bprepare your minds for the cmorrow, and I come unto you again.
Jesus is speaking to the people of the Americas, near the end of his ministry among them, which followed the cataclysmic events that sprung from his death. These people endured literal darkness, death, and mass destruction, then were visited by the Christ... somebody they'd been looking forward too for years. He healed them, taught them, and the scriptures say they had complete peace (no divisions among the people, complete unity in heart and mind) for hundreds of years. These verses in particular are after he has spent all day teaching them, and would like for them to prepare and understand what they've heard. What I want to pick out from these verses is the advice Christ gives us for learning in verse 3. These all come in the shape of a verb:
  • Go ye unto your home (find your place, or a place you're comfortable and love to be)
  • Ponder upon the things which I have said (really think about what you've heard. Ponder implies deep retrospection, not just shallow thinking)
  • Ask of the Father (Pray about it. Not only does the Spirit help you to learn and grow, but Heavenly Father wants to help us understand things, and he'll use the Holy Ghost to do so)
  • Prepare your minds for the morrow (Prepare for the next lesson! Be ready to learn more)
While I've approached these from a religious stand-point, being that I am a very religious person, you could also put a secular spin on these. Mainly, you'd have to take "Ask of the Father" and apply that to asking people with more knowledge than you, which is completely applicable, though not the main connotation of that passage.
 It is my hope however, that even if you aren't certain if you believe in God, you will go ahead and try to pray. It can't hurt you. You might even feel the Spirit, just like Moroni promises in his challenge at the end of the Book of Mormon.
 
Moroni's Challenge (Moroni 10: 3-5)
Behold, I would exhort you that when ye shall read these things, if it be wisdom in God that ye should read them, that ye would remember how amerciful the Lord hath been unto the children of men, from the creation of Adam even down until the time that ye shall receive these things, and bponder it in your chearts.
 And when ye shall receive these things, I would exhort you that ye would aask God, the Eternal Father, in the name of Christ, if these things are not btrue; and if ye shall ask with a csincere heart, with dreal intent, having efaith in Christ, he will fmanifest the gtruth of it unto you, by the power of the Holy Ghost.
 And by the power of the Holy Ghost ye may aknow the btruth of all things.

August 14, 2013

Exciting Times Are Coming!

I'm excited for seminary in the morning, even though I took the rest of somebody's shift tonight, so I'm sleeping less. It's good though; I need the money, and it gives me more practice in guest services, which I was trained today. 
I was really happy about that. 
REALLY REALLY REALLY HAPPY!!
Seriously, I love people, and doing this means I do fewer menial tasks. Half my shifts next week are guest services already! 
Anyways, seminary. I'm so excited I'm having a difficult time sleeping, and I've had this written up all day. 
Oh dear, I'm rambling. How embarassing!

August 11, 2013

I Will Always Love

Please, don't think that I view love as something to be thrown around, something coarse and common. I think saying you love someone has extreme importance and significance. It has true meaning. That said, I wrote this about the subject of loving, regarding somebody I loved, dated (the two can be exclusive) and then was dumped by. 
"I got betta'!"

I Will Always Love You

When I was younger (ironic, how quickly that phrase becomes a staple, even at my age) I don't think I really had a solid definition of love. It was murky, at best. A vague notion. I don't think that's weird, per-say. It's just the way it was. I think if I defined it then, I would speak about wanting and liking and caring and spending time with someone. It's certainly one of the ways I viewed my love for you. That was all there was to it - I like you, I want to be around you, I care about you, etc. It was simple like that... like me. In my childish naivety I declared "I Will Always Love You."

As our relationship continued, it grew darker and more stressed, as a general rule. My internal definition of love warped to something like "prevent pain, alleviate hurts and loneliness, or at least share it." This was incredibly unhealthy, and led to mutual cutting, one taking responsibility for the other's happiness, etc. While empathy is important, hurting yourself for somebody is a twisted, perverse way to show love. Despite any personal reservations I may have had (I doubt there were any) my definition of love changed. Through tears and blood I whispered "I Will Always Love You..."

I used to get angry with myself, or embarrassed, when I found myself thinking of you. After all, I was over you! I had reached catharsis, and wasn't desperate for you any longer. I had come to terms with our going separate ways. But I realized... I still love you. Don't misunderstand - I don't want to date you. I don't want to marry you - no offense. But I understand now, that love is more than that. Love IS compassion. Empathy. But it's also so much more, in ways I can't describe, and will always continue to learn more about. Most importantly, it's healthy. It leads to kindness and good deeds. It leads to concern for well-being, and pride in happiness. And now, calmly and with peace of mind, full of compassion, understanding, and acceptance, I can simply state "I Will Always Love You," now and forever!

August 8, 2013

Growing Up (Part 1)

This isn't a fiction piece; this is a "me" piece. I realize that I'm starting to really grow up and enter into the adult world. First and foremost, I realize that I have less than a year (in all likelihood) before I'm in a foreign country, trying to show people how to live with true happiness and direction. College, serious dating... All in the next few years. I could be married in a decade. A father. It's all coming in the future. Before I know it, it will be the present, so I need to do my best to *be* my best right now, and keep at it. As my favorite Ghandi-ism states, "be the change you want to see in the world." 

Naruto Chapter 642 Review

Today, a fantastic new chapter of Naruto was released. It answered a few questions, drove some character development along, and seems poised to unleash some more fox-power for the heroes. It also upped the ante, as we learned the truth behind Obito's power.
My thoughts from the chapter - SPOILERS!!!
  • "Those black things." - Second Hokage. What exactly ARE those black things? Chakra? Negative emotion? A nature transformation? I'm leaning towards Ten-Tails chakra until we have a better explanation. I think it's interesting that even the Second Hokage, master of exposition, has no clue what they are.
  • Is Obito's Ten-Tails-Sage form getting larger? Are those tails or Zetsu-growth? His design is fairly busy, but I assume we're seeing the Zetsu part of his body being affected by his jinchuriki transformation.
  • Obito can actually stop Edo-tensei?! This makes him way more dangerous. HE CAN TURN JUTSU INTO NOTHING?! That was the real kicker in this chapter, Obito has a technique that defeats all ninjutsu, which means he's already immune to 99% of his opponent's techniques. Being able to defeat the Impure World Resurrection also seriously amps up his threat level. There'll be no regenerating against Obito.
  • Naruto's comment about his power in his dreams was very funny. It's very "Naruto." He's lightheartedly commenting that "He's even stronger than I am in my dreams!" Of course, this means that Naruto will be surpassing his dreams, almost literally, when he defeats Obito.
  • This is the first time we've seen Naruto's regular form in what feels like a very long time. It's also been a long time since we've seen Sage-Mode! Glad to see it's still relevant.
  • Summoning Jutsu has a time limit? Okay. I didn't know this before, but it could've been an already established fact that I forgot. Interesting.
  • It was great to see Naruto stand up for his dad, and the other Hokage by extent. Obito's really hating on Minato, and it's not fair. It was great when Naruto verbally slapped Obito, who was really getting to Minato.
  • Awesome to see them land a blow, even if it won't end the battle. Of course, this puts EVERYTHING on Naruto, unless Sasuke has a random Sharingan-Chidori or something that isn't classified as Ninjutsu. Otherwise, we'll see people magically master Sage-Mode, and I'm unwilling to believe Kishimoto would do that.
  • Great follow-up with Naruto having been collecting chakra for Sage mode, it explains his eerie silence, and some of the seemingly-random designs for Obito's defense/attack/whatever it is. It was also cool of the Second Hokage to recognize that Naruto's not stupid, or at least, not stupid all of the time. We've seen Naruto time and time again be a tactical thinker on the level of Sasuke (especially regarding his battle against Pain), if not with a more adaptive/stubborn streak opposed to Sasuke's "cool" attitude (which disappeared into ANGRY RAGE mode for a while).
  • Ah, it would appear that's Kurama's negative chakra, which Minato and Kushina reaper-death sealed, at the end of the chapter. New power-up next chapter?
  • It also appears that Minato's totally stunned to see Naruto as a sage, like Jiraiya. He truly is surpassing his father.
  • What about Orochimaru? And Madara? And Sakura? It's great to see the main plot hurtling forward like this, but we've been waiting to find out what's going on with the Kage for quite some time. Last we saw them, they weren't doing so well, and Orochimaru was going to heal Tsunade? Also, Sakura was poised to be on the level of her teammates a few chapters ago, and is already back to being a background character, or (as in this chapter) not even present. What's she doing that's so busy? As a matter of fact, what are ALL the ninja doing? Waiting like in last chapter? Maybe Obito could create more Ten-Tail beasties to keep them busy. Last thing: Madara and Hashirama. I assume they're just having titanic off-screen battles that never end? Seems legit.

Countdown: VII

Countdown to _ _ _ _ _ _    _ _ _ _ _ _ _: VII
VII: The Roman Numeral for 7.
Number Abilities:
Low-level: The user can move small amounts of elemental material (wind, fire, earth, and water).
Mid-level: The user can generate fire, as well as move larger amounts of elemental material.
High-level: The user can move virtually any amount of elemental material.
 
General Otaktay, The Chariot, represents this Number group. He revels in his immense adaptability and sheer strength. Some say he's unbeatable, with all four elements at his command. His army never fails.

Countdown: VI

Countdown to _ _ _ _ _ _    _ _ _ _ _ _ _: VI
VI: The Roman Numeral for 6.
Number Abilities:
Low-level: The user can take away others' pain, in return for feeling it themselves. They can also absorb feelings of fatigue and other negative emotions.
Mid-level: The user can share their energy and strength with others, while also sharing positive emotions.
High-level: The user can take physical ailments of others upon themselves, and can swap places with other VI's.
 
Aiko and Amadeus, Lovers, are representatives of this Number group. Their dedication to each other and others is exemplary, and they are willing to shoulder each other's burdens.


Countdown: V

Countdown to _ _ _ _ _ _    _ _ _ _ _ _ _: V
V: The Roman Number for 5.
Number Abilities:
Low-level: Has brief, random visions of events happening in the present.
Mid-level: Can access random visions at will, and they last longer.
High-level: Can choose people and places to focus sight on, for however long the user wants.

Darshan, the High Priest is the sole member of this Number group. He can see both the big and small picture, replete with wisdom. He keeps a close eye on key players.

August 7, 2013

Countdown: IV

Countdown to _ _ _ _ _ _   _ _ _ _ _ _ _: IV 
IV: The Roman Numeral for 4.
Number abilities:
Low-level: The effects of Numbers will "bend around" the user.
Mid-level: Number abilities around the user are weakened.
High-level: The user can shut down Number abilities in their vicinity and is immune to their effects.
 
Ordo Augustus, the Emperor, is the sole member of this Number group. He represents their steadfastness and tenacity, which borders on stubbornness. He will not allow anything, including Numbers, to stand in his way.


Countdown: III

Countdown to _ _ _ _ _ _   _ _ _ _ _ _ _: III
III: The Roman Numeral for 3.
Number Abilities:
Low-level: The user can multiply small objects a few times before feeling tired.
Mid-Level: The user can multiply various sizes of objects and make numerous copies, with size and number being limited by their stamina and master of their ability.
High-Level: The user can multiply large objects so long as there is space to hold them, and make as many copies as they please.
 
Kura, the Empress, is the sole member of this Number group. She represents their virility, which occasionally bleeds into excess. She enjoys her position of power as Royalty, and supports those around her. 

Portfolio 1: Unit 1 Literary Response Journal

AN: This is from my Senior English Class, in response to questions about what I'd like my "verse in life" to be, and what I think my one strength is.


My one strength is in my words. Now, that may seem a bit of a copout, since it covers several bases (speaking, singing, writing) but I honestly think that settling on one thing would diminish the whole. Words, sung, spoken, and read, have a special strength all their own, regardless of where they’re from.
I am a bright young man who keeps his language pure, seeking knowledge from the best places. Because of this, I know how to mold my words, and control myself so that my words do good (and sound good). Lately, I’ve focused on using my words to inspire others around me. I’ve witnessed the strength of words numerous times myself, from the many speeches that are so dear to me, to talks at General Conference, to words of comfort. And song lyrics. Never forget music. If I could choose the verse I contribute – and I think I do – I’d want it to be a beautiful one, that people will read and think “Hey, that’s a cool bit. Let’s quote that sucker.” For something to be beautiful, it needs to be kind. It needs to avoid excess, and it needs to be in line with the Spirit. These are all things I want to be, and do, and say. If at the end of my life, I could say “I have always uplifted those around me with the words I chose to speak and write,” then I would truly count myself blessed. If my “one verse” could be wrapped up in the beauty of inspirational words, I would be satisfied, like a man who’s truly eaten his fill of delicious foods.

Countdown: II

Countdown to _ _ _ _ _ _    _ _ _ _ _ _ _: II
II: The Roman Numeral for 2. 
Number Abilities: 
Low-level: Glimpses of the future, only seconds long, which could be from tomorrow, or in ten years.
Mid-level: Longer visions of the future, topping out at a few minutes, with a better sense of whether they are soon, or in the distant future. They can now call upon the ability at will.
High-level: Leisurely perusals of the future, when they want, for however long they want to look. They can discern visions that will occur in a few hours, to visions that will occur tomorrow, to a week, to a year, to decades.

Anahid, the High Priestess, is the sole member of this Number group. She is a saint-like figure, providing guidance and warnings, while maintaining her position among the Royalty.

August 6, 2013

Countdown: I

Countdown to _ _ _ _ _ _   _ _ _ _ _ _ _: I
I: The Roman Numeral for 1.
Number Ability:
Low-level: Minor temperature shifting.
Mid-level: Accelerating and decelerating objects in movement.
High-level: Phasing objects through different matter phases (gaseous, liquid, and solid).
 
Vidar, The Mountebank, represents this Number group in ------ -------. He is the embodiment of vengeance itself, determined to achieve his goal at any cost.

Prelude to Countdown

Announcement! In twenty-two posts, I will be renaming this blog. The projected name will be "baikanon" (.BlogSpot.com, of course). This makes more sense, as this blog has strayed from being my story, to being *my stories.* Also, I will be announcing a new project, with ideas and character discussions, after the posting of the last Countdown piece.

Countdown:
I: Vidar
II: Anahid
III: Kura
IV: Ordo Augustus
V:

July 27, 2013

My Thoughts and Other Talks Written Before the Final Product (Baikanon)

AN: This is literally everything I wrote proceeding my talk. I actually came up with a few different talks, as you can see. My personal stories were originally in the final talk, but were cut for time, as well as the "Newsong" portion of my thoughts. I really wasn't feeling it with the first talk: too many absolutes, too little about inspiration. It was awful. Also, the space made by a couple of enters means that I had an unrelated thought, so I spaced them apart to keep them separate. Obviously. This is why my things get so long... bulky, unrefined thoughts like this. Enjoy. Or don't. Honestly, it's here for posterity, or whatever.
 
 
 
 
Using Our Language to Inspire Others

My goal in this meeting is to inspire you to inspire others, by both bringing the Spirit and teaching truth. I’ll let you be the judge of how successful I am by the time I finish.

To inspire somebody you should first ensure you have the companionship of the Holy Spirit. If you don’t, then you’re not even living in a way that would inspire anybody. As they say, you cannot pull somebody up from lower ground. If we have the Lord’s Spirit with us, then we can know of a surety that we can do any righteous thing, including inspiring others. Regarding the Holy Ghost, the language we use is vital. For the Strength of Youth states: “Good language that uplifts, encourages, and compliments others invites the Spirit to be with you. Our words, like our deeds, should be filled with faith, hope, and charity.”^1 What is inspiration, if not faith, hope, and charity?

There is a second component to inspiration. That is truth. In D&C 96, we learn “truth is a knowledge of things as they were, as they are, and as they will be.” Truth is eternal. What is so inspiring about truth, you may ask? You will find that all good things are eternal truths. For instance, we have the truth about humanity. We are children of a loving God, gifted with agency, with a potential to become like our Heavenly Father. Another example would be the truth of the Atonement. It is an infinite atonement, which will cover any trespass we commit, so long as we but repent. The concept of repentance itself is another truth! We can always repent, and be forgiven. These things inspire me to be better. The simplest application of truth is a reminder of things we already know deep down in our soul. The Spirit will recognize these eternal truths.

Being inspirational does not mean speaking in a convention, or writing a best-seller. It means speaking in a kind tone, expressing friendly truth. The clearest examples of inspirational speaking come from the Savior. Christ spoke with profound simplicity, doling out truth to the masses that needed hope. His is a style we ought to emulate. While we won’t express deep gospel truths every time we open our mouths, we should make them a part of our vernacular. Even if we aren’t always as in tune with the will of The Lord as the Savior was, we can bring ourselves more in line with His general vision by eliminating vulgarities, put downs, and negativity from our speech. These things have no place in Zion. I can promise you that you’ll never hear the Savior respond “your mom” or, “I can’t believe Susan wore THAT top!”

I pray I’ve adequately expressed that more than being kind, we need to not be mean, and more than not being cruel, we need to be good. There is no neutral ground. It doesn’t exist now, nor for the Israelites, and certainly not during the pre-mortal existence. There will always be a choice for us to make. L. Tom Perry stated “Our speech reveals who we are.”^2 We’ve all taken a covenant that decides who we are: witnesses of Christ, burden-bearers, fellow-mourners, commandment-keepers… and most importantly, people who take upon themselves the name of Jesus Christ.^3           

Robert S. Wood of the Seventy has said that “Every day each of us is implicated in obscuring the light or in chasing away the darkness. We have been called to invite the light and to be a light, to sanctify ourselves and edify others.”^4 For those who attended seminary last year, certain verses in Mathew should spring to mind.  “Ye are the light and the life of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid. Neither do men light a candle and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick, and it giveth light unto all that are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your God which is in heaven.”^5

We have a choice to make. We’re making it every moment with our thoughts and words and deeds. Am I going to obscure the light, or chase away the darkness? Make no mistake; there is darkness in this world. Many people live a life of complete darkness, unaware that there is light out there for them to grab hold of. If people weren’t metaphorically in their way, obscuring the light, they could see it. If more people decided to chase away the darkness, to throw open the curtains and let the sunshine pour in, we’d live in a much happier world.

Light… light is a powerful thing. Light comes from God. It is in the light that things grow, that we can read and strengthen our minds. In the light we can appreciate the beauty of the earth. It is in the light that we are baptized, married. And I know that we will be in the light when we are resurrected. After all, it is the morning of the first resurrection - a Morning with unfiltered, untainted light shining down upon a world that nearly succumbed to the dark. So ask yourselves right now: are you going to flail against the unavoidable morning and deny the inevitable sunrise, or are you going to prepare the world for the Savior’s coming and shine bright?

Never doubt the power inspiration instills in a person and in a people. It has enabled humankind to win revolutions, walk on the moon, tame nuclear forces, depose tyrants, and spread freedom. Most importantly, it enabled a young fourteen-year old boy to journey down a path that has touched all of our lives. I testify…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“You are a daughter of a loving Heavenly Father.” “I am a son of God who has given me every opportunity in life.” “No matter what wrong you commit, Christ will forgive.” “God made you special, just the way you are.”

^I’m not sure about this; it seems corny and doesn’t progress the overall theme very much.

 

Never doubt the power inspiration instills in a person and in a people. It has enabled humankind to win revolutions, walk on the moon, tame nuclear forces, depose tyrants, and spread freedom. Most importantly, it enabled a young fourteen-year old boy to journey down a path that has touched all of our lives. I testify…

 

The companionship of the Holy Ghost is one of God’s greatest gifts, so anything that invites it to be with us is a holy and worthwhile endeavor.

^This may be meandering, with the Spirit/God wants us to/inspire part.

 

I believe there are two components to inspiration: the presence of the Holy Ghost and knowledge of one’s potential, if you will. The first enables feelings of comfort and testifies of the truthfulness of the second; while the second builds hope and reinforces the first. Comfort is what allows us to weather the storms in life, and it is hope that allows us to sail to better waters.

^I don’t really like how this paragraph turned out. I was trying too hard to tie things together and give various attributes diverse things to do.

 

 

As members of this church, we are responsible for carrying out four agendas:

1.       Perfecting the saints.

2.       Redeeming the dead.

3.       Proclaiming the gospel.

4.       Caring for the poor and needy.

The subject I’ve decided to speak about compliments the first and last two goals well. (As for the dead, well… what can you do?) Brothers and sisters, how we can use our language to inspire others, and how we can draw inspiration from all kinds of places?

^that thesis is too broad. Also, there’s no good reason to include the mission of the Church, unless I structured the talk around discussing how it works towards each of the three points I mentioned.

 

 

They say that we ought to liken the scriptures. Take “I, Nephi” or “My servant, Oliver Cowdry,” and turn them into “I, Russell” and “My servant, Ryan Call.” I’d like to take that a step further and claim that we should liken all good things unto ourselves.

“Ask not what the church can do for you, but what you can do for the church.”

“I regret that I have but one life to live to preach this gospel.”

^That’s more of a “finding inspiration from all sorts of places” shtick. It’s a good thought, but is more for finding inspiration than inspiring others.

 

 

Brigham Young taught that anything that is true is a part of our gospel. In D&C 96:24, we have a definition of truth: “Truth is knowledge of things as they are, and as they were, and as they are to come.”

^That’s good and all, but where would I go from there? What does that set the foundation for?

 

Finding inspiration in the gospel?

Inspiring others?

Using our speech to inspire others?

 

L. Tom Perry once said “Our speech reveals who we are.”

From “For the Strength of Youth”: “Clean and intelligent language is evidence of a bright and wholesome mind. Good language that uplifts, encourages, and compliments others invites the Spirit to be with you. Our words, like our deeds, should be filled with faith, hope, and charity.”

^The quote from L. Tom Perry is a good thought, but shouldn’t be the centerpiece. If the point is how we use our speech to encourage others, than there should be a brief “this is who we are supposed to be, our speech reveals who we really are.” The FTSOY extract is useful. It could transition a thought about the spirit and a thought about inspiring with our language.

 

 

What would be the purpose of talking about the Spirit? What would focusing on it bring to the table?

-          The Spirit will help us find the words we need

-          We feel our best when we have the companionship of the Spirit

-          If we don’t have the Spirit, we’re not living in a way where we could offer inspiration to others (You have to be on higher ground to pull somebody up).

How about I transition from FTSOY to a brief mention of the Spirit, and how you have to be living in a certain way in order to be inspiring to others?

 

 

Robert S. Wood of the Seventy has said that “Every day each of us is implicated in obscuring the light or in chasing away the darkness. We have been called to invite the light and to be a light, to sanctify ourselves and edify others.”

For those who attended seminary last year, certain verses in Mathew should spring to mind.  “Ye are the light and the life of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid. Neither do men light a candle and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick, and it giveth light unto all that are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your God which is in heaven.”

We have a choice to make. We’re making it every moment with our thoughts and words and deeds. Am I going to obscure the light, or chase away the darkness? Make no mistake; there is darkness in this world. Many people live a life of complete darkness, unaware that there is light out there for them to grab hold of. If people weren’t metaphorically in their way, obscuring the light, they could see it. If more people decided to chase away the darkness, to throw open the curtains and let the sunshine pour in, we’d live in a much happier world.

Light… that’s a powerful word. Light comes from God. It is in the light that things grow. It is in the light that we can read and strengthen our minds. It is in the light that we can appreciate the beauty of the earth. It is in the light that we are baptized. It is in the light that we are married. And I know that we will be in the light when we are resurrected. After all, it is called the morning of the first resurrection. It will be the Morning, a Morning with unfiltered, untainted light shining down upon a world that nearly succumbed to the dark. So ask yourselves right now: are you going to prepare the world for the Savior’s coming, or are you going to flail against the unavoidable morning while we weather these last hours of darkness?

^This may be too wordy, too thick for the ideas it expressed. Is it pretentious? Grandiose? Is there a purpose in talking about all of this for so long?

 

The spirit is the greatest motivator of men. Deception, greed, and anger will always be there to motivate, but not to good. A wicked tree beareth wicked fruit. So while masses may be opiated on these perversions of truth, that which comes from God will be stronger, will overcome, and will inspire.

The reason my heart soars when I hear the echoing of “I have a dream…” is a quiet testimony of the Spirit. The tingling on my skin when I hear

 

I have two brief experiences I’d like to share, both of which tremendously impacted me and had me questioning my way of thinking. At the time, they were oddities. Now, they are my inspirations.

The first takes place after a busy school day. Most of you know what it looks like outside – people pouring out, traffic everywhere. This specific event happened after the rush had died down, and there were only trickles of people leaving. I was on the sidewalk walking away, when I turned behind me and saw a young woman, whose hair was green and blonde, with several piercings in her face, dark makeup, and a wardrobe that screamed “I am a rebel!” Well, I saw this young woman backtrack up the cement steps, and pull open the door. Out hobbled a teacher, an old woman, with boxes in her hands.

I’ll briefly relate the second story, and then tie all of this together.

This story also takes place after school, but rather than in the midst of spring near the end of the school year, this one takes place during the winter time, with well over 6 inches of snow on the ground. I was waiting for a friend, when a fellow classmate walked past me. I didn’t know him terribly well, only that he played the bass, and he liked to make crude jokes with his friends. We only ever interacted in orchestra class, and even then we were in different sections. He had the build of a football player. Suffice it to say, we were not close. Neither of us knew the other’s name. He said, “What’re you doing?”

“Waiting for a friend,” I simply responded.

He looked at my feet. “Are you walking home?” he asked.

“Yes,” I responded. “It’s a mile or two away, but I don’t mind.”

He took a look at my feet again, and then started through the snow, dragging his feet purposefully. I looked at him in question for a moment, before he turned around.

“What’re you doing?” I asked him.

“Making a path for you,” he simply responded.

His response floored me. I was shocked that he would show such kindness to me. I mumbled “thank you,” but I don’t think I could have managed to convey my sincerity in that response. It is one of the kindest things anybody has ever done for me. I had unconsciously judged this boy to be a ‘regular’ teenage boy, with all those negative connotations, and here he showed me that altruism exists in each of us.

 

 

 

 

 

Introduce self…

This talk is focused on the things that inspire me, and why I think they inspire me.

Number one is, of course, the scriptures. I’m not sure I’ve ever read a verse that has inspired me so much as D&C 18:10:

“For behold, the worth of souls is great in the sight of God.”

This verse simply and profoundly states the feelings of God for us. God, an omnipotent, omniscient being with infinite power, who’s created galaxies and billions of souls, thinks we are worth a great deal. Not just the souls who change the course of history. Not even just the good souls, but every soul, regardless of its condition. If that doesn’t make you think a bit better of yourself, you may need to look up a few verses on humility.

Another scripture that I look to for inspiration are the verses in Mathew 16 (a scripture mastery, for those of you in seminary last year):

“For behold, ye are the light and life of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid. Neither do men light a candle and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick, and it giveth light unto all that are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they me see your good works and glorify your Father which is in heaven.”

This verse leans more on the “how we inspire others” side of affairs. If we do our best and “let our light shine” we’ll inspire others. It’s not a new development that our actions can speak louder than our words. An interesting point is that we glorify God when we act like this.

There are also stories in the scriptures that have inspired me. A few common ones like the story of Nephi, particularly in 1 Nephi 3, and a few more esoteric picks like the story of Deborah, the prophetess.

I think Nephi himself is a very inspirational figure, because he’s an everyman. He could be any one of us, if we would just yield to the enticing’s of the Spirit. He displays a reluctance to kill even his most reviled enemies, constantly forgives those who do him wrong, and displays a consistent trust in the Lord, and in his father. Maybe I can be a little more like Nephi, and simply respond “I will go and do,” the next time a favor is asked of me.

The second thing that inspires me would be music, and in particular, lyrics. One of my all-time favorite songs is titled “Newsong” by a group called Tacica. The chorus for the final verse never ceases to stir up my heart. It goes:

“Who is the person I want to see the most?

The number of people in my heart just keeps on growing.

Can I remain true to myself?

We haven’t read enough of our story to call it quits yet.

We should all just be ourselves.

That’s another way we grow stronger.

                                                                          We just want to be stronger.”                                                  

In this song, the other way you grow stronger is by keeping more people “in your heart.” I love how they portray two complimentary paths to strength. If you choose to be yourself, you’ll grow stronger. If you care for others, you’ll grow stronger. The song even gently reminds, “your story’s not over yet, let’s keep going.” However trite it is, being you is something that will inspire others. As children of God, who we are inside is surely something beautiful.

Another song I’m in love with is “Midnight Orchestra” by Aqua Timez. While it’s a bit cheesy, it has profound meaning to me. A common pre-chorus line in the song is about spoons:

“A small spoon is all you need to scoop out happiness.

There’s just the question of if anybody will want to share some of yours.”

So yes, the idea of scooping out happiness like ice-cream is a bit silly. But what isn’t silly is the thought that there are people who aren’t sure if they want a piece of that happiness-cream action. We need to be willing to share our happiness-ice cream, small spoon and all. We don’t all need our own vast Costco-size tub of happiness. Sometimes, we don’t even need our own store of it, though that’d be the best. Sometimes we all just need to be willing to share with each other.

The hymns I Stand All Amazed and Because I Have been Given Much often bring up feelings of optimism and determination, which form inspiration when properly brewed together. They have complimentary lines of thought: Jesus, the Lord of Heaven and Earth, gave His life for me. Me, a sinner! He bled and was crucified. He atoned for me. And because of this, because I have this amazing gift, I need to give to others. Because I’ve been given so much by the Lord, I need to share with others. God has given me a bucket of happiness ice-cream, and I need to get my spoon out and share that stuff with everybody!

The third thing that inspires me is a good speech. I’m very fond of the dialogue found in Charlie Chaplin’s The Great Dictator speech. In particular, there is a part where he claims that:

“We all want to help one another. Human beings are like that.  We want to live by each other’s happiness – not by each other’s misery.”

This passage reaffirmed my faith in the human condition, and the innate goodness within us all. I like many other speeches as well. Some of them are famous, like Martin Luther King’s I Have a Dream and President Reagan’s Tear Down This Wall. Others are the kind you can’t really tell people about, or they’ll laugh at you, like the president’s speech in the movie “Independence Day.” Yes, the movie with aliens. Proof that you can find inspiration in unlikely places.

The final thing I want to talk about in terms of what inspires me is the exploits of others. I’ve already mentioned Nephi, so I think I’ll shy away from the heroes of the scriptures, who are all undoubtedly inspirational. We can find inspirational people in our recent world history, which I take as proof that God always has, and always will, care for His children.  I am amazed how the actions of one man, who refused to act in violence, freed his entire country. I am stunned that a small group of patriots managed to topple the greatest worldy power of their era. I am humbled that a young boy with a question restored the gospel of Jesus Christ.

These are all special events, without a doubt. But there are quitter struggles going on that inspire me in more personal ways. I am inspired by the youth who leaves behind an old life and joins a church that requires them to change their way of life, which willingly becomes different from their family. I am inspired by the teenager who says “Let’s not say that about them. That’s not nice. I like them.”  I am even inspired by the young man who treats his mother with proper respect and gratitude!

So I’ve given you my “Best of.” My highlight reels. What’s the point? Here’s the point. Looking over this list, there are several traits I see. One is finding goodness in everybody.  The Great Dictator verbalized this in a way that appeals to me on an emotional and mental level. Music says things in a fresh way that makes you think of things in a different way. D&C is a powerful testament that God personally cares for each one of us, as is I Stand All Amazed. Scripture stories and people’s lives showed me that we can achieve greater things than we think possible. Truly, all things are possible with God. I am inspired by so many different things because there are so many incredible things in this world to be inspired by. Speeches, songs, scriptures, and life stories all show similar things, from different perspectives. The things that inspire me teach me to believe in myself, in others, and in my God. The things that inspire me show me that I can become more than I am, that I can make a difference, and that you can too. The things that inspire me show me the best of human nature, while assuring me that we can conquer the worst. The thing that inspires me the most is a testimony. A testimony that…