Personal Journal 5

AN: The first paragraph is in response to the question, "in the Spoon River anthology, who do you most relate to?" The second paragraph is in response to a question of what I think would best symbolize me on my headstone. The third paragraph was answering what my ideal place would be like.

 

In the Spoon River anthology, I most relate to Lucinda Matlock. Not only do I hope to live the way she has, but I strive to keep the same attitude about life. I want to look back on my life and not regret loss. It takes life to love Life, after all… I want to love life, however many difficult things happen in my life. We only get one chance to have a specific experience, and I want every single one to count. I want to have a large family, regardless of the risk, or the stigmas. I want to be married for my entire life, and always be in love. And at the end, I want to be able to pass down something worthwhile to my children, both literal and figurative.

      I think the picture that would best represent me on my headstone would be a quill pen. Writing is an integral part of my life. I enjoy reading and writing, the latter more so than the former. My head is constantly filled with story ideas, character motivations, and odd words I’d like to use conversationally someday. Creatively using words, forming stories – those are things that I’d like to do for the rest of my life. Writing, whether it be through text messages, emails, reports, minutes for a meeting, friendly notes – whatever it is, it’s one of the largest ways for me to express myself to others. I view the quill pen as an elegant symbol of writing.

      My ideal place is with people who love me. In the future, that will definitely be with my wife and children. I certainly hope I’ll have that depth of feelings for the people I date, when I return from my mission and start dating seriously. I think the people in your surroundings are more important than the actual place – although that certainly has a huge effect. Aside from people, I’d want to be somewhere I knew where everything was. An orderly place, so that I can put up things whenever I want and not have to stress about finding them a place. I’d like a place with lots of shelves, for my cds and books. I’d want windows, to watch the weather, and to see the rain. I’d want a place that isn’t claustrophobically small, but isn’t very spacey.