A place to explore my identity, and reflect on the past, present, and future. And because I love story telling, that love will shine through. You can read about my experience as a missionary at my sister blog, ElderLynn.Blogspot.com. I hope to hear back from all of you, and hope you'll enjoy what I've written!
Why We're Here
"Because writing is, much like death, a very lonely business."
- Neil Gaiman
March 31, 2013
Easter 2013
Happy Easter to all my lovely readers! Today, I'd suggest doing what I'm doing (no, I'm not going to say spend time with your loved ones. That should be a given) and go to Mormon.org and watch their wonderful videos about the Saviour Jesus Christ, and the Atonement, which culminated in his crucifixion. The Atonement was the single greatest act in all of history, validating all of existence. It gives every single person the choice to return to our Heavenly Father and progress for all eternity. Without a doubt, that makes Easter a far more important holiday than it's occasionally treated as. Lets all do our best to remember the importance of the Atonement, and express a bit of gratitude towards our older brother, Christ Jesus.
Categories:
Easter,
Jesus Christ,
Mormon,
The Atonement
Personal Journal 6
AN: First paragraph is in response to Pres. Kennedy's speech about the new frontier. The second is discussing the statement "it is better to reign in Hell than to serve in Heaven."
I strongly believe that Pres.
Kennedy was correct when he stated that our ignorance would grow as our
knowledge did. Speaking from a purely intellectual stand point, the world is
incredibly complex, regardless of your field. In math, there are ever
increasingly complex formulas and equations to be learned, to continue
progressing. The more you learn in math, the more complicated things become
open to your understanding. This is a universal truth. In biology, the complexity
of life is still being unraveled. The more we learn about the world around us,
the more we realize how little we know. Even when we’ve determined we’ve
completely exhausted all information regarding a thing, we discover something
new that opens up completely new avenues to learn from. From a religious,
ethical, and moral standpoint, we are always learning how to be better,
provided we start down that road. In the gospel, we can always learn more about
faith, or the Holy Ghost, or the nature of the atonement. Indeed, we can spend
the rest of our lives solely devoted to one aspect of the gospel, and still
only have scratched the surface. To believe we’ve learned all we can about
something is both ignorant and vain.
I strongly disagree with the
statement that it is better to reign in Hell than serve in Heaven. Personally,
I’d do anything in my power to get to Heaven, and avoid Hell. However, I think
that quote reveals an interesting mindset and personality. A person who
believes in this values power over happiness. They’d rather be in charge than
be happy, which can be extremely debilitating. A person like that has a core
value of power. They care not about happiness, or the potential to move up from
a lowly position. They understand only ruling over others.
Categories:
English,
Personal Journal,
Philosophy,
Poetry,
Quotes,
School,
Senior Year,
The New Frontier
March 30, 2013
Personal Journal 5
AN: The first paragraph is in response to the question, "in the Spoon River anthology, who do you most relate to?" The second paragraph is in response to a question of what I think would best symbolize me on my headstone. The third paragraph was answering what my ideal place would be like.
In the Spoon River
anthology, I most relate to Lucinda Matlock. Not only do I hope to live the way
she has, but I strive to keep the same attitude about life. I want to look back
on my life and not regret loss. It takes life to love Life, after all… I want
to love life, however many difficult things happen in my life. We only get one
chance to have a specific experience, and I want every single one to count. I
want to have a large family, regardless of the risk, or the stigmas. I want to
be married for my entire life, and always be in love. And at the end, I want to
be able to pass down something worthwhile to my children, both literal and
figurative.
I
think the picture that would best represent me on my headstone would be a quill
pen. Writing is an integral part of my life. I enjoy reading and writing, the
latter more so than the former. My head is constantly filled with story ideas,
character motivations, and odd words I’d like to use conversationally someday. Creatively
using words, forming stories – those are things that I’d like to do for the
rest of my life. Writing, whether it be through text messages, emails, reports,
minutes for a meeting, friendly notes – whatever it is, it’s one of the largest
ways for me to express myself to others. I view the quill pen as an elegant
symbol of writing.
My
ideal place is with people who love me. In the future, that will definitely be
with my wife and children. I certainly hope I’ll have that depth of feelings
for the people I date, when I return from my mission and start dating
seriously. I think the people in your surroundings are more important than the
actual place – although that certainly has a huge effect. Aside from people,
I’d want to be somewhere I knew where everything was. An orderly place, so that
I can put up things whenever I want and not have to stress about finding them a
place. I’d like a place with lots of shelves, for my cds and books. I’d want
windows, to watch the weather, and to see the rain. I’d want a place that isn’t
claustrophobically small, but isn’t very spacey.
Categories:
English,
Personal Journal,
Philosophy,
Poetry,
Senior Year,
Spoon River
March 29, 2013
Unicameralism in Nebraska
AN: This was written in 15 minutes, to fulfill an assignment about the unicameral legislature in Nebraska.
Clearly.
It's approximately two pages, for those who are curious.
Nebraska Legislature. “History of the Nebraska Unicameral.”
2013. Web. Mar 29 2013.
Clearly.
It's approximately two pages, for those who are curious.
Unicameralism in Nebraska
It is a wide known
fact that Nebraska
boasts a unicameral legislature. What is lesser known is that it was once a
bicameral legislature. This system was abandoned in favor of only having one
house for several reasons.
The
biggest reason for reform was discontent with the bicameral system. Bills were
never completed because the two houses couldn’t agree on terms, and the
joint-committees who worked on them met in secret, making them unaccountable
for their actions. They were easily influenced by lobbyists as well, and had a
great deal of power.
George
Norris, who was a New Deal Republican, campaigned heavily to abolish the
bicameral system and implement a unicameral legislature. He argued that the
bicameral system was outdated, inefficient, and unnecessary. Part of his
argument was the fact that the bicameral system was based on the British
Parliament, composed of the House of Commons, made up of elected
representatives and the House of Lords, and composed of nobility appointed by the
King. Norris argued that if in America there was only one class, then they
shouldn’t have two different groups of people as the British did, doing the
exact same thing.
A
common argument against the unicameral system was that with one house, it’d be
easier to fall to corruption and that the bicameral system existed in part to
implement checks and balances. Norris argued that the Supreme Court and the
governor already acted as checks and balances. More importantly, he stated, the
people would be a check and balance. The new house would have simple, easily
understood procedures, and the press would be given greater access, making
officials more accountable for their actions.
Another
argument against the unicameral system was that there would be hasty legislation
with only one house. However, there were safeguards implemented to prevent
this. Five days had to pass between a bill’s introduction and its passage, and
all bills had to have a public hearing. Bills could also only include one
subject.
The
unicameral house was implemented in 1937, with almost 300,000 votes for,
opposed to nearly 200,000 votes against. Norris, the Depression, and other
issues had a great effect on this vote. After the unicameral house was
implemented, the legislative membership went from 133 to 43 (a 70% reduction).
The number of committees was reduced from 61 to 18, and nearly twice as many
bills were introduced in their first session, almost double the number that had
been proposed in the last session of the bicameral legislature. The last
bicameral session lasted 110 days, cost $202,600, and passed 192 bills. The
first unicameral session lasted 98 days, cost $103,450, and passed 214 bills.
Another
benefit to the Nebraska
system is non-partisanship. Party membership has no effect on election
procedures, and elections are determined by popular vote, rather than the
common Republican versus Democrat system.
At
least 21 other states have expressed interest in a unicameral system, but it is
doubtful that they will implement such a change. After all, as Hugo Srb (the
unicameral house’s first clerk) said, why would lawmakers want to legislate
their own jobs out of existence?
Works
Cited
Categories:
History Lessons,
Nebraska,
Politics,
School,
Senior Year,
Unicameral,
Unicameralism
Personal Journal 4
I’ve never really grasped what
made the lawyer so awesome after he won the bet. To me, he appears to be
egocentric, cynical, and downright dreary. I saw a man who’d given up on life,
because it has variety, because it can’t be understood. The lawyer was always a
pathetic figure to me. The banker who never changed inspires no feelings of
victory or grandeur either. To me, neither man won the bet. It sucked the life
out of both of them, in different ways, and left both empty shells of what they
had been once before. Nobody won.
I would cross the I-beam for my
family and friends. I’m not sure if I’d cross it for a complete stranger, but I
hope that I’d have the strength to make a sacrifice for another person. If I
had that strength, then truly would suffering in all forms have meaning. I want
the strength to care for strangers. I’d also cross the I-beam for religion. If
the prophet, Thomas S. Monson, told me to walk, I would. If it was a
fundamental principle of the church, I would walk. If somebody that I vastly
respected told me to walk, I would… as long as I knew that they loved me and
wanted the best for me. I suppose some of my governing values then would be:
family, friends, idealism, religion, and loyalty.
When Victor Frankl quotes
Nietzsche saying that “he who has a why to live for can bear with almost any
how” he’s speaking a universal truth. Frankl has also said that when suffering
has a meaning, it’s much more bearable. Those two ideas are deeply intertwined.
If we have a cause, then it’s easier to sacrifice. Just look at the long list
of martyrs history has provided us. Each had a cause that they believed
transcended their life. While it ended up not letting them live, it guided
their lives, much how the ‘why’ enables us to bear with any ‘how.’ If you have
a goal, then you’ll endure the nitty gritty required to reach it. If you love
your wife, you’ll put up with things that you wouldn’t put up with from other
people. If you have a why, you can do almost anything. It’s an intrinsic value
that will shape our lives. “Why” is one of the most powerful words in the
English language. It’s power as a question can unearth people’s motivations
(and, more often than not, their deceit), and when used as Frankl means it, it is our motivation. Why indeed.
Categories:
English,
I-Beam,
Personal Journal,
Philosophy,
Poetry,
Senior Year,
The Bet
March 28, 2013
Lies, Injustice, and the Un-American Way: The Internment of Japanese-Americans During World War II
Lies,
Injustice, and the Un-American Way: The Internment of Japanese-Americans During
World War II
During a time of unrest, hundreds of thousands of people were unfairly
imprisoned by their own country. They committed no wrong, but were instead
victims of vicious racism. They were denied their most basic rights, and lost
virtually everything after their imprisonment ended. Japanese-Americans during
World War II were unfairly imprisoned in concentration camps. Despite this,
Japanese-Americans persevered and retained their sense of identity as
Americans. This unfair treatment began before they entered into the camps.
Since
their arrival in America ,
the Japanese had been discriminated against. As a whole, the U.S. was a very
intolerant country during the 20th Century. They were the victims of
many anti-Asian campaigns, including the “Anti-Japanese Crusade” in 1920. One
Albert Johnson, a former newspaper editor, now serving as a senator, was known
for inciting anti-Japanese sentiments [Tacoma Daily Ledger]. He would end up
serving on the House Committee on Immigration and Naturalization [Doug Blair]. Millar
Freeman, president of Seattle ’s
Anti-Japanese League, was brought in to find anti-Japanese witnesses for the
Committee’s investigation [Committee on Immigration and Naturalization 230].
The Japanese were often blamed for stealing jobs away from Americans, as well. In the wake of
the assault on Pearl Harbor , anti-Japanese
legislation was given a major stimulus.
One of those
pieces of legislature was the Executive Order 9066. After it was passed, over
110,000 Japanese-Americans were forced to leave their homes. Two-thirds of them
were American citizens, and over half of them were children. Stunningly,
General DeWitt’s Final Report: Japanese
Evacuation from the West Coast claimed that “[t]he very fact that no
sabotage or espionage has taken place to date is disturbing and confirming
indication that such action will take place.”
The Justice Department actually found the evacuation unnecessary and
unconstitutional, but didn’t really care about the act, and helped finish it [Internment:
Overview].
After Executive
Order 9066 was passed, the forced evacuation of Japanese-Americans began. The
victims were given as little as a 48 hour warning to prepare for incarceration.
They were only allowed to take what they could carry. They were given
identification tags for themselves and their few possessions. They had to try
to dispose of all other possessions and property before being taken away. They
were not allowed to bring pets. As a group, Japanese-American losses are estimated
to be in the billions [The Camps Experience: Overview].
The internees
would have no idea of those losses for quite some time however; as they were
then kept in internment for an average of three years. The facilities they had
been placed in were only temporary; often merely tar paper covered frames. Many
of these barracks lacked plumbing and cooking facilities. Showers and bathrooms
were shared, and unpartitioned. Whole families lived in rooms less than twenty
feet by twenty feet [Legacies]. The camps were
surrounded by military police, and enclosed in barbed wire. Many of these camps
were out in the midst of deserts [Dissent During Crisis in America ]. All in all, these places
were less than hospitable.
These squalid
camp conditions were far from the forefront of the minds of the internees,
however. They tended to focus on the many rights that they had been denied, to
their utmost surprise. They were denied the right to freedom of religion, being
forced to practice Christianity while in the camps. They were denied the right
to gather whenever they wanted, and to even speak the way they wanted. They
lost freedom of press, receiving news that was heavily censored. They were
never formally accused of a crime, never addressed an accuser, and never had
any legal counsel. Those things alone are the basis for the loss of many, many
rights. Ultimately, they were denied equal protection under the law.
The sheer number
of rights that were denied led to a government initiation into the matter. This
report brings many details to light, and sheds greater light on others. It
mentions how the Supreme Court and Congress were both unaware of the
unconstitutionality of the act, yet allowed it to pass and be enacted. They
mention that there never was a single act of espionage, sabotage, or fifth
column activity committed by the Japanese in America . A re-affirmation of the
fact that no mass exclusion was made against those of German or Italian
ethnicity is present as well. People who gave statements for the report called
the internment ‘an inhuman mistake,’ ‘unnecessarily cruel,’ and ‘a personal
injustice’ among many other things.
Incredibly,
despite the prejudice and inhumanity they were treated with, the Japanese
demonstrated incredibly endurance. Through hard work, and determination, they
were able to bring a
semblance of home to the camps. Personal
Justice Denied mentions how the Japanese often brought America with
them into the camps, since they considered themselves American. They learned to
shoot marbles, and hared celebrity heroes with the rest of the country. At
their best, ignoring the underlying emotional traumas and neuroses, they were
like other American communities… but with barbed wires and armed guards. When
the option came, there were many who chose to enlist in the military.
Enlistment was
one way to leave. Another was to properly answer ‘loyalty’ questions on a
quiz-like pamphlet given to the internees. These questions involved denouncing
citizenship to either Japan
or America ,
as well as their feelings towards the American government. They proved highly
divisive. For the first generation Japanese immigrants, it’d make them
stateless persons, as they were outlawed from becoming citizens of the U.S. There was
a small group of Japanese who answered completely in the negative, resulting in
them being placed in Tule
Lake , a special camp. For
the most part, the Japanese didn’t answer completely in the affirmative, nor
did they answer “no, and no.” Those who did answer completely in the negative
stated it was their only way to show their anger and feelings of betrayal
towards a country that had stripped them of their rights, while claiming to be
a land of liberty. Those who answered somewhere in the middle did so because
they honestly could not claim full support of a country that had brutalized
their rights as its inhabitants. In the end, the ‘no-no’s’ were a stunningly
small minority (less than 6%) [Angus Macbeth].
Those
who did leave internment through
enlisting with the military formed the 442nd Infantry regiment. This
regiment would be unequaled by any other group it’s size during WWII. Their
tremendous bravery and determination would earn them more awards than any other
infantry regiment has ever held, as well as the nickname ‘The Purple Heart
Battalion,’ because of the heavy losses they sustained. The 442nd
was integral to the rescue of the “Lost Battalion.” For the rest of the war,
they would be the most determined and successful fighters in whatever advance
they were participating in, regardless of casualties [100th
Battalion, 422nd Infantry].
The
442nd was able to accomplish amazing things. And yet, they weren’t
the only Japanese who wanted to fight. There were many Japanese interned who
wished to join the battle, but were excluded for one reason: they wished for
their people to be given back their constitutional rights. These enlistees were
denied.
Despite
intense prejudice, war-time hysteria, and blatant racism that resulted in a
loss of virtually every single right they had been promised as Americans, the
Japanese were determined to prove their loyalty. They humbly bore their
crucifix of race. Decades later, their children and grand-children would begin
a movement known as the “Redress Movement.” They wanted their loss of rights to
be recognized. Through endurance, and many of the same traits that allowed
their parents and grandparents to succeed in the internment camps, they were
successful. Several Presidents acknowledged the mistake that had been made.
Then-President George W. Bush stated, “In remembering, it is important to come
to grips with the past. No nation can fully understand itself . . . if it does
not look with clear eyes at all the glories and disgraces of the past. We in
the United States
acknowledge such an injustice in our history. The internment of Americans of
Japanese ancestry was a great injustice, and it will never be repeated [Pearl
Harbor Remembered].” Are we still looking back at our disgraces with clear
eyes, or are we focusing only on our glories?
Works
Cited
The Tacoma Daily Ledger. July 2,
1920. Pg 4. Print. 12 Feb. 2013
Doug Blair. “The 1920 Anti-Japanese
Crusade and Congressional Hearings.” Washington
Departments. Seattle
Civil Rights & Labor History Project, 2013. Web. 12 Feb. 2013. http://depts.washington.edu/civilr/Japanese_restriction.htm
“Internment: Overview.” National Asian American Telecommunications
Association. Exploring the Japanese American Internment, 2002. Web. 12 Feb.
2013. http://caamedia.org/jainternment/ww2/index.html
“The Camps Experience: Overview.” National Asian American Telecommunications
Association. Exploring the Japanese American Internment, 2002. Web. 12 Feb.
2013. http://caamedia.org/jainternment/camps/index.html
“Legacies.” Smithsonian Institution. Letters from the Japanese American
Internment, 2012. Web. 12 Feb. 2013. http://www.smithsonianeducation.org/educators/lesson_plans/japanese_internment/home_away.html
“Dissent During Crisis in America .”
UCI Libraries. The War Within, 2008.
Web. 12 Feb. 2013. http://www.lib.uci.edu/about/publications/exhibits/warwithin/index.php?page=section_6
“A Summary of Constitutional Rights
Violated.” A Lesson in American History.
The Japanese Experience, Curriculum and Resource Guide, 2009. Web. 12 Feb.
2013. http://www.jacl.org/edu/SummaryofConstitutionalRightsViolated.pdf
Angus Macbeth. “Personal Justice
Denied.” Congress. Commission on
Wartime Relocation and Internment of Civilians, 1982. Web. 12 Feb. 2013. http://www.nps.gov/history/history/online_books/personal_justice_denied/chap3.htm
“100th Battalion, 442nd
Infantry.” Global Security. Military,
2012. 12 Feb. 2013. http://www.globalsecurity.org/military/agency/army/100-442in.htm
George W. Bush. “Pearl
Harbor Remembered.” 8 December, 1991. Web. 12 Feb. 2013.
Personal Journal 3
AN: The first paragraph is responding to a short story about a King, and a few of his subjects in a small town who discover a silver mine. It should be easily found by googling "The Silver Mine," and then possibly by adding a few key words. The rest of it is responding to Viktor Frankl, and "Man's Search for Meaning."
I’ve chosen to respond to the prompt regarding the silver
mine. I believe that the parson was correct in asserting the village was better
off without the silver mine. It introduced vast amounts of money at one time,
into what was formerly a rather simplistic society. If it had been tin or something worth vastly less, it probably wouldn’t
have been a problem. It would’ve provided a reward for hard work, rather than
the virtually free money a silver mine would provide. This encouraged both
slothfulness and greed. Greed is the base of many sins, including anger, which
was also introduced. The silver mine tore the people apart, and made them much
worldlier than they had been before. The parson was correct in determining that
their simple, poor lifestyle kept them humble and happy.
I strongly
support Frankl’s assertion that the last of human freedoms is the freedom to
choose one’s attitude. Humanity has been gifted with agency – the ability to
choose. We do not function by instinct, but by logic, by choice! Most of the
time, we have basic choices – when to work, when to sleep, etc. However, Frankl
had no choices. He had to do what he was forced to, or die. Despite this, he
still retained his agency. He still had two sets of options: first, he could
choose not to follow the commands given him and die, and, second, he could
choose how he endured his ordeal. And while at times he could not keep up a
positive disposition, who could blame him? Sometimes choices are extremely hard
for us to make. Regardless, we must always strive to choose to make the best of
things. Optimism and idealism are truly powerful – they enlighten and
strengthen, as opposed to despair and hopelessness, which enslave and cripple. No
matter how much we’ve had taken from us, how much we’ve endured, we can always
choose to smile. We should always choose to be the happiest we can be.
March 26, 2013
Stirling Isn't Silver - It's Golden!
Last night, I attended a concert at The Granada, in Lawrence. The opening act was The Vibrant Sound, whom I was pleasantly surprised by. They were good, brought a good energy, and were very interesting.
Then, everybody started cheering when the main act stepped onto stage: Lindsey Stirling. Ill be posting an in depth experience post later, but I just wanted to say: I was there! It was amazing! She's amazing! I'm absolutely enamored with the way she approaches life.
Then, everybody started cheering when the main act stepped onto stage: Lindsey Stirling. Ill be posting an in depth experience post later, but I just wanted to say: I was there! It was amazing! She's amazing! I'm absolutely enamored with the way she approaches life.
Personal Journal 2
AN: The first poem referenced here is Robert Fulghum's All I Need To Know I Learned In Kindergarten. The discussion about trees is from in-course work. The third reference is Viktor Frankl's Man's Search for Meaning, one of my all-time favorite works, and worthy of several blog posts on its own.
I’d add these rules to his list because I think they cover topics that Fulghum, understandably (he IS an adult…), overlooked. As a young adult, I feel the need for mentors much more keenly. Parents are also important. Besides being our first mentors, they understand us, and love us above all else. They want the best for us. However, it’s not the end of the world when we have to leave their side. At the end of the day, they’re still there for us. While we’re away, we can learn and grow in new and fascinating ways.
"Finally,
just because I’m completely uncertain as to what length requirements are, and
having the bar high (or at least higher than this) in my previous journal, I
though I’d also address Viktor Frankl’s statement about the relativity of
suffering, which I wholeheartedly agree with. That fact about suffering
actually makes me feel better about myself. I have a good life: loving parents,
financial stability (well… we can put food on the table), a nice home, and
faith in my religion… it seems unfair that I should ever have feelings of
despair, or struggle with my ability to help others. I’m gifted with so much
that others can only dream of. Even here, in America , I see stark contrasts to
my situation, in my own town. But despite all this, I can be sad – and I should
be sad, at times. I have a tendency to ignore the bad things in my own life,
such as the death of extended family members, and only focus on the issues in
others people’s lives, and how my ‘life,’ or, perhaps more accurately, the
setting for my life, is in such a better position. Of course, that’s not
healthy at all. I have my own emotions, both good and bad. My suffering is
relative to my own experiences with it, not the pain of other’s. It’s unfair to
make that comparison."
"When I look at Robert Fulghum’s list, I notice that he’s
forgotten two important rules:
Don’t be afraid when mom and dad drop you off. You’ll be
okay.
The teacher is there to help you. Don’t be afraid to ask for
help.I’d add these rules to his list because I think they cover topics that Fulghum, understandably (he IS an adult…), overlooked. As a young adult, I feel the need for mentors much more keenly. Parents are also important. Besides being our first mentors, they understand us, and love us above all else. They want the best for us. However, it’s not the end of the world when we have to leave their side. At the end of the day, they’re still there for us. While we’re away, we can learn and grow in new and fascinating ways.
"Regarding
which tree I would compare myself with, and why, I would choose an Evergreen
tree. They are relatively-low maintenance trees, and they’ll remain green as
long as they’re taken care off. If cut off however, they’ll dry up and lose
their needles – essentially dying. I’m the same way. As long as I have support
– proper nutrients, so to speak, I’ll thrive throughout the year, regardless of
weather. Without that outside support though, I can’t do it. I can’t make it on
my own.
Categories:
English,
Poetry,
Robert Fulghum,
Senior Year,
Trees,
Viktor Frankl
March 25, 2013
Extended Metaphor
AN: Another assignment for 12th Grade English. This time, I was to write an extended metaphor about my life. My choice is rather obvious. Once again, these are unrefined, personal works. Please enjoy!
My Life is a Larva within a Cocoon
"I was a
larva. For years after my birth, I fed on the leaves I grew up around, piece of
beautiful flowers – as a matter of fact; I ate through things like Eric Carle’s
“Very Hungry Caterpillar.” I’m done
gorging myself with new things though – I know what’s good to eat, and what’s
poisonous now. I’m full to the brim, and I’ve progressed as far as I can go. So
now I have to evolve, ascend.
"I am a
larva within a cocoon. A hard shell protects me from predators that would feast
upon me. This shell does another thing my crunchy exoskeleton does not – it
hides me from the world, and provides a home for me as I go through my final
metamorphosis into something completely different from what I used to be. Don’t
worry; I’ll still be myself! I’ll have the same thoughts, and many of the same
worries and dreams. What will be different is my body, and what it can do. I'll be able to soar in the sky.
"Nobody can
tell me whether I’ll be a moth or a butterfly whilst I lie within my cocoon.
Sure, they can place bets, but nobody can command me to be one or the other. Of
course, we all know that I’m going to be a butterfly – graceful, colorful, confident
and bright!"
Categories:
Author's Notes,
English,
Personal Journal,
Philosophy,
Poetry,
Senior Year
Personal Journal 1
AN: Due to the nature of these assignments as "Personal Journals," they will be personal in their content, and fairly unprofessional in their writing and execution. I also suggest looking up the pieces mentioned in my journals, because they are intended to be responsive in nature. These Personal Journals are for my 12th Grade English class through BYU.
"I had a strong emotional response
to “The Journey” by Mary Oliver. From the first line, I felt that I had
discovered – through a school course, surprisingly enough – something that
became very special to me, very quickly. I like how the day of realization
doesn’t come abruptly, in a single blinding epiphany. Instead, it’s a
realization that dawns on you in its unabridged splendor, as evidenced by the
first two lines: “[o]ne day you finally knew what you had to do…”
"I’m also intrigued by the feelings
of potential guilt that are present, when you follow your own voice. The poem
says “you felt the old tug at your ankles” and “‘[m]end my life!’ each voice
cried.” It’s very much possible that when you listen to yourself that there are
feelings of guilt, of unfulfilled responsibilities, and of letting down those
who are counting on you. The speaker in this poem demonstrates immense courage,
because they’re clearly set in their habits. The word “old” in the phrase “old
tug at your ankles” tells me that they’re used to succoring the various voices
in the house, or even that the speaker has disembarked from this journey
before, at the stirrings of guilt and remorse.
"In particular, I’ve always felt
that obligation to “mend [other’s lives].” I feel a responsibility towards
others around me, and that self-perceived obligation is apparent by the number
of church duties I volunteer for, and even in the sillier aspects, like
constantly bringing cookies to seminary when asked by others. I feel terrible
when I don’t fulfill the responsibilities I take upon myself, so it amazes me
that this person was able to follow their inner voice, regardless of past
habits and perceived duties. This feat becomes even more inhuman when the
details of the arduous journey are given to us: fierce wind, fallen Mother
Nature, and the deep darkness that always accompanies the latest part of the
night.
"I love the reward that’s given for
this Odyssean task, and how it’s symbolized. The burning stars in the 25th
line remind me of a couple of different songs that have also affected me
greatly. Interestingly, they’re acting in the same capacity both times. In
“Diver” by Nico Touches the Walls, it describes a self-realizing journey like
this one, complete with its own trials. And, in the final verse, the song says:
“[a] lost swan was floating in the starry night sky…” While the interpretation
of what that lost swan represents is definitely up for debate, I’ve always
pictured it as a constellation. I viewed it as a symbol that the stars burn
their brightest and most hopeful when they’re united. The second song,
“Midnight Orchestra” by Aqua Timez is another life journey describer. While I
could quote the whole song all day long, I’ll just quote the relevant line:
“the stars sit in the sky. The stars unite and play their symphony…” I love
music. And I love stars. The imagery of stars making music (I believe it’d
sound like a music box melody) absolutely enthralls me. Once again, the stars
serve as a cue that you’re on the right path… that things get better. That you can get better.
"The end of the poem presents a text
book example of a strong ending. It leaves you thinking, hours after you’ve
finished reading it and signed out of your school course. It’s a sad thing when
one doesn’t recognize their own voice at first, but increasingly common in a
world where everybody is always in our ear. At least the speaker does
eventually recognize it, and bonds with it. The last phrase of the poem is
controversial to me. Is your life really the only one you can save? Sometimes I
think otherwise. It’s my dream to change the world – to make everybody a bit
happier, a bit more in tune with the things that are important, with the meaningful things in
life. But I can’t deny that people are free to make their own decisions. I can
agree with Mary Oliver on one point; you cannot save anybody’s life until
you’ve saved your own. A drowning man cannot swim another man to shore; neither
can a starved man share his bread with another. After reading this poem, it’s
reminded me of many of my own weaknesses and problems, both mental and
physical. And because of this poem, I’ve remembered that I can’t help others
until I’ve helped myself. If I want to save others, or, in keeping in line with
this poem, cease to be one of the distracting voices, I have to improve. So I
will."
March 24, 2013
Upcoming Pieces
Hello, readers
I'm excited to inform you that I have several pieces I'm going to be posting this week! They are:
- My research paper about the unconstitutional interment of Japanese-Americans during the Second World War.
- An essay about the differences between "not sinking" and "soaring."
- A review of the first episode of "Problem Children Are Coming From Another World, Aren't They?"
- Plot details about one of my more recen efforts in story telling, "Arcana Inepta Fabula."
My muse is singing once again, so be ready for a revolution in my sullen blog!
I'm excited to inform you that I have several pieces I'm going to be posting this week! They are:
- My research paper about the unconstitutional interment of Japanese-Americans during the Second World War.
- An essay about the differences between "not sinking" and "soaring."
- A review of the first episode of "Problem Children Are Coming From Another World, Aren't They?"
- Plot details about one of my more recen efforts in story telling, "Arcana Inepta Fabula."
My muse is singing once again, so be ready for a revolution in my sullen blog!
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